Saturday, April 29
wow i think this is one of the longest times i've gone w/o blogging (1 week) !
so i have three common tests left - physics, music, ih. that happens to be placed both in order of time it will take place, and the order i expect my marks to be in descendingly. yep. im really going to die for ih ARGH i cannot do sbq to save my brain and my hand will die fr all that writing and im whining so i'll stop.
i think there's something wrong with my lackofsleep-immunity system. some people can not sleep at all lorh, but i just realised how tired i am. have enough self-control to keep awake during class, cca, piano lessons, church, guzheng lessons, when im practicing piano. but when i get on an mrt and lean on something i shut my eyes and start drifting away into the beckoning oblivion called slumber. then i get jerked awake because of my subconscious telling me im falling asleep standing, which equals not good. then like on wednesday, i reached home at about 7.45, ate dinner, took a shower, attempted to read newsweek for a while, then i plonked on the bed, shut my eyes and the next thing i knew it was morning. 9 hours of sleep, i dont know how i managed it. sigh, ohh well im really trying to keep with everything and its not my fault im a slow worker. garh. i know i need more than 4 - 5 hrs of sleep a day, but that's all i can take without owing piles of work or turning up for piano lessons without any improvement and theory lessons without progress which would mean im wasting my parents' money.
but its all a horrible cycle because the lack of sleep i get results in me falling asleep at, say, 10 then i jerk awake at 12.30 to realise i have a lot of work to do, then i do work until 2, and sleep. and broken sleep makes me more sleepy in the end. ladida. but recently i've managed to find ways of effectively using slack class time to do my theory homework! =) and the random long weekends are like second heaven. one lastlast week, one this week.
but despite it all, i can say im happy. very satisfied. being busy makes me feel like i have some sort of worth somehow and that im actually leading a relatively meaningful life. and God's with me all the way whee! and having the little breaks - like watching bits of the chelsea/manu match, like going with erzi to buy flipflops, like buying birthday presents for people, like playing tennis and going bowling with my dad, going to church and worshipping, stuff like having wonderful icecream in the house - are absolutely fantastic and makes everything seem worth it after all. and despite feeling shibai quite often, at least i havent failed anything yet!
& i harth my family, im getting my marimba! GLEES. dont ask me how ill find time to practice, i will. kuz i do believe that as long as you really want to do something, you'll
make time to do it. ohoh and my daddy wants an electronic drumset im so amused, he wants me to teach him and says we'll form our very own ensemble, heh.
watched first part of the 'why my vote matters - a dialogue session with mm lee' and although political blogging isn't allowed and stuff but i have to say that some of the reporters in e dialogue session were e
rudest arses i've ever seen. especially miss turqoise. felt like slapping them and asking, do you happen to know why you can speak english? why you have jobs? why you have a degree? why you can afford to wear the branded trash you're wearing? you owe it to the man you're facing (lky), dood. i mean im not saying go kowtow to him gratefully or vote for him, but at least have the decency to show some darn respect.
i bought $2 flipflops today!
i was green-ed at 5:36 pm
