Monday, March 20
WAIL.MY GOSH I FAILED THE PERFORMANCE SO BADLY I SLIPPED UP FOR ALMOST EVERY BAR AND NOTHING WENT RIGHT AND I WAS FREEZING MY FINGERS OFF AND I SUCKED AND WHEE I SHALL SHUT UP RIGHT NOW BUT IM REALLY PISSED OFF ABOUT MYSELF.no, actually, im not pissed. i just realised that im really very lax with myself. as in, too easy on me. i expect very little, whether its personality, temper, or academically. and i must change, yesh i must.
anyways, today i managed to spend only $1.40 on recess! =D whee im going to start savingsavingsaving and hopefully by the end of april i'll have enough for one thing on my wishlist. im hoping its the qi jian xia tian shan vcds. ahhhh. if not, i'll settle for the tchaikovsky scores.
SO i am going to change. resolutions as follows:
- to spend as little as possible on recess, but still remain full. this can be possible ( like today ) and especially if i bring sandwiches from home.
- to really practice piano 1 hr a day, 6 days a week (the other day is my piano lesson)
- to scrape out time for general revision, at least 2 hrs a week.
- to complete homework on time. which means i'll be up til
rather late tonight. if i should get to sleep at all, that is.- to learn how to prioritize.
- to scrape out time for guzheng practice. hm shall not be too ambitious. 2 hrs a week.
- if i do get vcds to watch, i am going to watch them only after doing my work.
- to read papers regularly. both chinese and english. and read my newsweek & asia weekly (the chinese one) like how i would read my wuxia xiaoshuos. (which means, back to front, front to back, and can memorize the main ideas and most of the quotes.)
- to get cracking on my various SIAs.
- work first then play. put msn status on busy until 12 has past, or when there's only 7 people left online, whichever is later. blogging is an exception, but i am not to spend more than 20 mins a day blogging.
- to not slack off during weekends. most of my homework piles up during the weekends, because i cant do any work on sats or suns. normal days i manage to finish stuff.
- if i really want to read my wuxiaxiaoshuos very very badly, i am to do so on the bus, or during lunch, or after i finish work. but by the time i finish work, its really suggestable for me to go and sleep. but of course, its up to me and my moods at that point of time.
- to tighten the reins. on myself. very very very much more.
there! okay i have forty-nine more days to improve my piano so i manage to scrape a pass in class performance (which will be marked this time) so yep. i have to do this. i have to perfect
flight of the bumblebee. i know i can.
see you darl. i've broken one of the resolutions already, i think i spent quite a while blogging.
and the whirls of the mindwe will never understandor need to.for in there lies the beautyof the soul of man.-alena. (dont ask me what the stuff in green on top means, i dont know either. just an on the spot thing. it sounds weird and stupid, i know.)
i was green-ed at 8:15 pm
