Tuesday, March 21
see, all i do in my life is disappoint my parents again and again. then i find excuses for myself. and disappoint them once more. yet they're always there for me, and they never give up. they still think im capable of so much, that i have all this bottled-up potential. they trust me, they love me, they spend i dont know how much on me, be it time or money. and what do i do? i lie, i run, i hide. and i make them disappointed with me.
im having a darned breakdown. the kind when you sit in front of the computer screen, chatting on msn, listening to random music, and tears just gush out, but you dont dare to cry out loud because your parents are sleeping in their bedroom opposite, and you cant let them hear.
i was green-ed at 11:00 pm
