Sunday, March 26
the newspaper is a muchly useful learning tool, kuz i just learnt that "the vice trade" = prostitution. yeah, im rather slow.so. a conversation between my sister and me in the car.her: what do you want to be when i grow up?
me: i want to be ... happy.
her: huh? you mean you dont want a JOB?!
(mum and dad erupt into guffaws. sister is unaware that she has said something amusing.)
anyways, of course its not really funny at all. but it DOES set off a chain of thought. i mean, i do need a job to be happy. and for me to be happy, the job needs to be one i like. which leads me to think what subjects i want to take at jc.
cryeth. i've always thought i'd take something sciencey. and with chem and physics, seems like i'd most probably go into engineering or something like that. i do think majoring in physics is a lot of fun though. probably the aftereffects of reading 'angels and demons' and books discussing physicists doing amazing research. and i love physics!
but then and again. if i had the time and energy to, i dont mind sitting for hours on the piano practicing one single piece. so music is really rawkass too. sniff. and i think its the only job which doesnt involve doing the same things over and over again. (practicing pieces doesnt count. each time you play, its different and there's more beauty to it somehow.) but music isnt really that big a field? especially pianists. considering half the world are pianists. sigh.
which is why i want to take up at least one more instrument. i have guzheng, but my ability there is currently quite stagnant because i dont practice. must start practicing regularly! guitar doesnt count because i dont play classical. so im hoping somehow i'll find the time to learn dizi or xiao or flute or cor anglais. a woodwind instrument, anyways.so about the music field, its not really very big, that is, i dont appear to have much choice about profession if i do take music. i mean, okay piano teacher is one. or i could go into conducting! and go back to peps to do conducting hahahaha how fun. OR the really kool but impossible one is to do arranging and composing for singers. or music teacher in secondary schools, but thats all rather dreary, methinks.
if only i can get into band. in which case i'll play percussion, and that could be another thing i know how to play. especially if i manage to get my marimba at the end of this year. but wait i want to start learning my woodwind instrument at the end of this year too. ARGH. perhaps music really is my passion. but im not very good at it. as in all the hmp people are much better than i am. and i can effectively only play one instrument well.
then theres chinese. which im not very brilliant in, but i like very much all the same. and chinese lit is really loads of fun. HMPH. am very confused. should i go into arts or science stream in hcjc! if science, it'd be physics chem maths definite, and chineselit or music. which results in confusion. if i go into arts stream itll be er, chinese lit and music and SOMETHING I DONT KNOW (econs or accounts or elit), and maths as my contrasting subject. which is really annoying because i'd have to give up physics. SNIFF.
if only we could take two sciences, two humans. physics, maths, chinese lit, and music. perfect!
but im only in sec 3, and jc is faraway. i suppose.
i was green-ed at 8:38 pm
