Sunday, February 26
"if you please, pretty pretty please,
could just tell me where heaven is?"
the artist smiled, pointed to his paints
- empty canvases, hairless brushes -
the beggar grinned a mouthful of yellow,
remains of rock-hard bread.
the banker leans forward, and with a
snap of his fingers
a stack of $50 notes in his outstretched hand.
"if you please, pretty pretty please,
could just tell me where heaven is?"
the man outside the brothel, lumbering in,
the man outside the bar, shuffling along
the man outside the casino, counting his coins,
deciding what to mortgage next.
and in the portable toilets outside
needles - heroin - cocaine - ecstasy, snuffed
quickly as the sirens ring.
"if you please, pretty pretty please,
could just tell me where heaven is?"
mountaintops, valleys. and-oh-maybe!
they're hidden behind the grasses.
elves, gnomes, fairies? perhaps
below rivers, ends of rainbows
wide-eyed wonder, only 10,
the bed on a rainy day, or -
skiving off sunday school to play with boys.
heaven is everywhere,
concluded the child.
i was green-ed at 11:24 pm
Saturday, February 25
SO. maybe you're wonderfully mature. maybe you think that you are SO MUCH MORE intelligent and streetsmart than i am. or maybe WE JUST DONT LIKE THE SAME MOVIES. why the heck must you make me out to be an idiot just kuz i like i not stupid too?
like " oh, obviously you haven't watched jack neo's movies before. " I HAVE, ALL OF THEM. and after a huge discussion about why i think its good and why you think it sucks, you add the final insult. " oh i know why you like it. just because there're hot guys in it. " thanks for hinting that im shallow. so yes, they're GOODLOOKING, not hot (that has sexual meanings, fyi.) but that is not the reason i like the movie.
whatever, so you're much more intelligent than i am and enjoy watching movies with artistic value blah blah blah.
anyways! today i went shopping with liping jie and it was awesome! the flea market near orchard cineleisure wasnt too bad. saw guomeimei. yeah, believe it or not. didnt know who she was, was talking to this nice lady @ the shop when she came along, red hair and horrible eyeliner, bought something from a shop, and two people with very pro cameras started taking pics of her. only after they finished phototaking, and she walked off, before the nice lady @ the shop said oh thats guomeimei! (she was wearing positively disastrous clothes.)
well im not exactly SURE its jocie guo, but thats what the shopkeeper said.
the nice lady really is very nice! basically she does handpainting on tiles and stuff and its so darn nice i bought one that says happy birthday for unknown reasons. i also pre-ordered a plate from her! it says 'bless this home, O Lord' at the top, and it has a house plus four pigs, 2 adults 2 piglets, and their names below saying "lorena, alena, ma, pa." SO DARN CUTE RIGHT!
whee cost me 24 bucks. but nice. liping jie made one too, with five animals of e different zodiacs in her family. so fun!
I SPENT SO MUCH TODAY OHGAWSH IM GETTING BROKE BROKE BROKE.
i was green-ed at 9:05 pm
Friday, February 24
SWAYN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE WONDERFULLY FUNKEH WATCH!
basically its like one of those punk wristband thingums, i have one with a star on it, but this one's an army green colour with a clock face on it. SO KOOL! argh shall use it for obs. e colour matches, after all.
today i realised two things.
1) ratio of numbers of
people i've disappointed or let down or failed in my life so far
to people i've done proud of in my life so far
= approximately 40:1. somewhere along those lines.
2) THE WORLD IS FULL OF FANTASTIC PEOPLE!
- like john boon. though i hated him and i was convinced he hated me, i think he was awfully nice today.
- like sodium hydride. besides having a surname that sounds like my nickname, and despite being relatively lazy, as well as a workaholic, (thats all oxymoronic, yet true, nevertheless), plus his varying moodswings and temper, he is quite nice.
- like my baobeierzi. YINGMING you're such a dear, seriously. thanks for being there! whee. & letting me play with your squishy tangerine.
- like me. HAH, the ego.
okay anyways, that is all very besides the point. today we got back our maths test, and the class fell into a deep state of depression. my mark wasnt depressing but it wasnt good, i just passed, with 30/50. sigh. i know i should be glad i passed in the first place, and i can imagine people going " please larh, look @ WHAT I GOT " and im just like, thats not how i compare my marks. i mean i aimed for @ least 35, so 30 is rather disappointing.
my mum promised me a new laptop/notebook @ e end of e year if i got 6 A1s out of the 8 subjects i take. so texting convo between my mum and i today:
me: ma, i got back maths test. 30/50. highest mark 35, average 21.
ma: oh. why so bad?
me: it was hard. do i still get my notebook?
ma: yeah, a paper one from popular.
see, i harth my mum.
but i absolutely cant foster a liking to zjf @ all. in all her time teaching us so far, she has never called on a singaporean to read kewens. ITS ALWAYS THE PRCS. i dont know why. gosh. & all those things we spent so much of our energy on. if she's going to mark us based on the wonderful PRCS, we're all going to fail and blah, and blah, and blah. which im already doing. sheeshit.
WHEE!
i was green-ed at 11:17 pm
ladida. allegro barbaro is SO DARNEDLY NICE! i've only practiced one page though. so about like 6 more to go. ha. but nevermind. im working on flight of the bumblebee as well so thats all kinda kool! 20th century muzik love.
council invest wasnt too bad today! & cheronne was TEH CUTE, people in class are voting for her to dance for our silver centre cip thingumajiggum.
so about end of year programme, i really want to go to vietnam/thailand those southeastern countries to do cip, but then yingming raised a very good point about bird flu, so i dont reckon my parents would be particularly keen. i will convince them somehow! if not i'll go to india. maybe i'll go for attachment / exchange next year. fun.
my computers freezing & lagging on me, as usual. argh.
well today im thanking God for physics! how one can explain things through equations & calculations. actually chems not too bad too. how one can explain things through a strange table.
because im awfully cheesy, i have just christened myself (drumroll...) sodium! figure out the horribly lame pun. think chemistry. er, even bigger hint. pnah is sodium hydride!
i was green-ed at 12:07 am
Thursday, February 23
im feeling rather guilty because i took my piano-practicing hour (8 to 9) to sleep instead. so i didnt practice AT ALL today. sigh.
i failed my maths test. i just know i did. its horrible, like, the first time in my life i've ever failed a maths major thingum.
i think i passed chinese, but borderlinely.
so today after school, went with chanyi to e science centre for chem talk! though it ended up being a physics talk, which is even better wootz! hahahaha physics is so much harth & im now in love with quantum mechanics. like how an electron can pass through two slits @ one time. & antimatter. fun!
anyways, then off we went to watch i not stupid too at jurong entertainment centre. my 2nd time! all i can say is, it has a slightly different effect on me - i didnt laugh as much, & i cried even more. and chanyi's right, shawn lee has very nice skin colour - that kind of bronze you seldom see in asians. and when joshua ang cries, i just feel a new flood of tears coming, because he has that very strong face and when that kind of face crumbles, you cant help but feel for him too.
they're wonderful actors, seriously. i think, anyways. so is joshua ang's dad in the show, & the girl is so pretty. the one with the very oriental face, who's quite good friends with joshua ang in the movie i believe.
and chanyi's mum is awfully nice. like giving me lifts, then letting me leave my barang in her car, and buying bukit timah plaza waffles (drool) for us!
whee! today im thanking God for somehow steering my path into percussion when i first joined band in p2 (because i was SUPPOSED to join clarinet)!
i was green-ed at 1:18 am
Wednesday, February 22
whee, i dont know what else i can say really. thanks for being there with me yesterday Lord, sometimes i have my downtimes and its hard to put up a happy face (or more like bland, nonchalant expression, in my case, because thats how i look like most of the time?) but we're expected to. thank you for not "expecting" me to. thank you for listening, and understanding. thank you for being there for me, no matter what. thank you for showing me verses. thank you for opening your door to me. thank you for helping me see that there're many more important things in life. thank you Lord for lending me your shoulder to lean on. no, giving me your shoulder to lean on.thank you for playing ' In Christ Alone ' and ' When You Believe ' yesterday, i cant say how much it helped me. also, thank you for giving me wonderful people around me, like kristin, chanyi, lynette, people who bother to hear me rant and give me their time to help. woots!wahaha my list is getting too long. i figure from now on, i should thank God for at least one thing a day. because He's worth so much more. as follows, the lyrics to ' In Christ Alone ', by Newsboys. in Christ alone, my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song
this cornerstone, this solid ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm,
what heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease
my comforter, my all in all,
here in the love of Christ, i stand.
in Christ alone, who took on flesh
fullness of God in helpless babe,
this gift of love, and righteousness
scorned by the ones he came to savetil on that cross as Jesus died,
the wrath of God was satisfied,
for
every sin on Him was laid,
here in the death of Christ, i live.
there in the ground, His body lay,
light of the world, by darkness slainthen bursting forth, in glorious day,
up from the grave He rose again,
and as he stands in victory,
sin's curse has lost its grip on mefor i am His, and He is mine,
born in the precious blood of Christ.
no guilt in life, no fear in death,
this is the power of Christ in me,
from life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny
no power of hell, no scheme of mancan ever pluck me from His handtil he returns, or calls me home,
here in the power of Christ i stand.
i was green-ed at 12:56 am
Monday, February 20
weehee. have just showered, after returning from school. music, that is! which was quite fun actually, despite the test. i passed with a b, i would think. anyhows, the chinese high guy finally came! his name is jason, and he's a basketballer, and he seems quite nice but awfully shy. well considering he's in a room with 8 girls and 1 pregnant woman (teacher) he cannot really be blamed.
anyhow, I DIDNT PERFORM TODAY! only xinyee did, actually. heh. we ended up not having time! and mine's postponed to t2w1, HAHA i feel darnedly shuang.
blogging is so irresistable, although i have a pile of work to do that'll last me to about 1+. groans. dont know if i can survive, kuz i had 3.5 hours this morning, which sucks, really. as in im still awake and energetic, but i know i cannot survive on just another 4.5 measly hours. grrr, whatever.
i realise that im very moodswing-y these days, which is quite a scary thing. as in i dont remember ever being this moodswingy. one moment im elated, one moment im pissed off, one moment im exhausted, one moment i feel inadequate, and another i feel guilty.
like right now, i feel awfully nostalgic. of primary 2-3 days, when huiyi, amanda, candice, jiawei and me were all in band, percussion. those days were seriously awesome, when band was very nearly the centre of my life. and nothing made me happier than going to band practice, hang around & chat to seniors.
(goodness i forgot their names though. i remember isaac, who was like WOW @ e drum set, & e tall thin guy who played bass drum, then the half jap guy who played timpani, and the girl who played bass drum or gong. and most of them could play the pitched percussion. and the auxiliary percussion! but mostly that was left to us juniors of course.)
when the seniors let us try the drum set, and i could do it & was so proud of myself. when in lord of the dance, i was given a break fr auxiliary, & i got to play e vibraphone, i was e happiest person on earth. & when i got to play the glockenspiel (affectionately called bell) for 'together', i was i dont know. in second heaven. sigh. then when recording, 'lord of the dance' - which is a pure percussion piece (ALLITERATION!) took the shortest time, 2 hours, and all of us were gloating about it.
those were the days. and theyre gone.
and maybe thats why i want a marimba so desperately.
oh, and im so glad to still have the band cd, in good condition. listening to it makes me want to laugh and cry and talk and write. and it makes me feel old. so now i understand why old people feel miserable so much. because they finally realise that all their times gone are only in their memories, and when those memories are gone as well, they'll have absolutely nothing.
american folk fantasia
carnival de paris
warabe - uta fantasy
the lord of the dance
variations on an african hymn song
katak lompat
much love,- alena.
i was green-ed at 7:08 pm
Sunday, February 19
freak. im pissed off.
and i dont need to sleep tonight either. sorry, maybe YOU'RE used to sleeping 4 hrs a day and you have beautiful eyebags, but some other people on this planet prefer to get 5 hrs, and thus be able to concentrate during class, which will mean i actually understand stuff, which will THEN allow me to be able to complete my work quicker so i can sleep a bit more.
i dont fancy having to do the SIA by myself indeed, and having to churn out the entire speech and stuff.
so you are busy. so you have a lot of homework to do. argh, newsflash, SO DO I. and i have a music test tomorrow, blah blah blah. you're not the only one with commitments, YOU KNOW.
and i cant not do it, because i do care about my marks. GARH.
i was green-ed at 9:32 pm
Friday, February 17
today was a rather interesting day!
well first off, after flag raising, someunknownteacher in army regalia came up & talked. i have no idea what he talked about, something about totalle defence. then he got people to come up & read war poems! ididntlikethefirstone. yeah. @ least, im quite certain there're many other people who wrote better poems. definitely.
then was this fire extinguishing exercise! & then this person came up to tell this story about an unknown group of people who worked together as a country, and succeeded in whatever they set out to do? gosh. it was so drama everyone was like dotx3.
then we had e chem test. but halfway through, there was a darn FIRE DRILL! talk about e brilliance. when we got back from e boarding house (where we evacuate to when there's a fire), nah told us to continue w our tests and said we've been blessed greatly by supernatural forces today.
i think i passed chem, but will definitely not get an A. SIGH. my mum says i get a new laptop @ e end of e year if i get 6A1s for the 8 subjects i take. i'll die larh.
okay anyways. chem ate into our recess & left us w 5 minutes. gah. then lunchtime, i went to watch some random people play football! (namely lynette, jayne, brenda, sam, claire) then i joined them for a duration of about 6 minutes. ha, that's not too bad for me, considering my excellent footeye coordination.
MR LEE TURNED UP IN THE MORNING IN ARMY UNIFORM WITH THE CUTE LITTLE BLACK CAP AND OMGAWSH HE WAS TEH CUTE BUT HE REFUSED TO WEAR IT AGAIN!
& when i asked him to take a pic of himself in uni so we can show yingming who wasn't there today, he said " oh just go online, search for a plump man in army uniform, and CLICK. we all look the same, really." yeah, he changed into his infamous pink striped shirt after the pretty adorable army unif.
after school, went to coro w lynette, wanted to get a pe tee, but they were out of stock! then we saw the prettiest fbt black jacket, & lynette's thinking of getting a team jacket so she'll talk to eliza like next week. its really nice. 26 bucks.
then we went to kap, where we hung with nicolette & amanda & melo. which was vastly amusing (albeit disturbing) as in the topics they choose to discuss. (read: discovery channel style. aka reproductive thingums.) yeah.
AFTER WHICH, i went home! to west mall, actually, to check out the cds that liping jie asked me to look @. they were really crappy.
& then piano. omgawsh i think i'm really starting to harth piano again. not that i ever loved it much, but seriously. there's just so many NICE PIECES! (which reminds me, chanyi, i need to ask you for some pieces) ahhhh. & im thinking of continuing w theory, kuz apparently dipabrsm needs grade EIGHT theory. which poses a slight problem.
so i'll think about it, i'll most probably continue, have indiv theory lessons after practical lessons. i wont really mind e extra workload, i think. its all for a better cause. & i think im going for the dipLCM (from london college of music and media) @ e end of e year, its quite an easy one to take, like, not much harder than e abrsm grade 8 pieces, apparently.
would act as exposure. then maybe end of next year, i'll take the other dip from lcmm, called ALCM (associate dip). and by then i should be done with my grade 7 theory? hopefully. and then finally a year and a half after that or something (which means halfway through j2, goodness.) i can take my dipabrsm, or lcmm's llcm (licentiate dip).
woot, fun! hahaha not really. hopefully i can cope larh, i dont plan to have a lot of commitments during jc. weehee. just cca & my piano. harth. plus my guzheng. & my guitar is just for me to sing along to when i want to do worship. so yep.
OHOH. and on the way back from piano, in the mrt, when iw as holding my thick fat book that says piano classics, this guy about 28ish i think? he asked if he could see what pieces my book has. then i was like sure and passed it to him to see, & he looked through it for about 3 minutes, then right before the train reached bktbtk, he told me to try mozarts piano concerto no 20 and 21, because it sounds good. hahahaha so interesting! but thank you very much, unknown person, & you're awfully nice.
then while i was rushing to get back home (to watch white chicks) there was this father and his son in front of me strolling @ a lento pace. then the son (approx 16-17) saw me rushing-ish and he just moved aside, & his dad was still blocking me and he was like " 'dy, move to one side," and the dad did exactly that & i was like omgawsh everyone's so nice today! and i was all sorries & thankyou's as i bustled past them & went home.
ps. i got sandals. finally! for obs. and general usage.
ps. my dad had a violent reaction when i told him if he'd mind paying $105 extra a month. (i meant it for my theory, kuz thats how much it costs for 4 indiv lessons, 45 mins each.) he thought i meant pocket money.
p.s. my parents seem to support me taking theory. WOOTZ!
p.s. claire & jayne are coming with me to join tennis in jc if we can, kuz LYNETTE is abandoning me to go & join football, if they've a girls team by then.
p.s. ithinkifailedmy chineseliteraturetest. no, i know i did.
i was green-ed at 11:31 pm
Thursday, February 16
" you're supposed to fail everything in sec 3. "
good, because i'm accomplishing this quite fantastically.
i was green-ed at 7:47 pm
Tuesday, February 14
we now have a hamster at home. my sister has named it some disgustingly mushyly horrid name, but i demand to call it Doctor. btw, my sister got the hamster by going to a friend's birthday party. all attendants went home with a hamster. goodness.
i dont recall my teeth ever hurting this much. today the dentist did something awfully strange and added three bunches of wires and said i dont need to wear rubber bands any longer for now. and the pressure REALLY hurts darnnit.
so, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
being a cheapo, as well as being awfully forgetful, i was only reminded of the fact that i needed to buy VDAY GIFTS like after school, when ym asked if i wanted to go vday shopping with nicolette & her. and i was like omgawsh i so need to. sigh. hence in my rush, & my immense lack of time today, i've ended up with giving people only ONE bar of chocolate. goodness.
but its the thought that counts right, and er, any amount of chocolate is good!
OWOWOWOWOW MY TEETH ARE KILLING ME GOSH.
the vintage guide to classical music is such a rawkass book, seriously. i WANT TO PHOTOCOPY THE ENTIRE THING LARH. and when i try to just take down notes, i end up copying half the page kuz its so darn good!
i dont generally approve of valentines day actually. ( not that my approval has any effect on anyone, but yes. still. ) it's so commercialised. and its like, made to be obliged to give roses/chocolates/engagement ring. nothing in love should be obliged whad, right? well technically. whats so special about feb 14, i could set any random date to be cupid's day or something. love IS present throughout the year! wootz.
AND, valentine's day is NOT specifically for bgr love. pffft. love is also for family, friends, God (except i dont think He celebrates this occasion much) pets, siblings. so it is sortuf kool i guess if people recognize that part of it. and actually care to be nicer to each other on that day, to break into a smile more easily, to give a word of encouragement or endearment. see! life is much simpler than some people make it out to be.
but on a lighter note, life really is sparkling rainbows sometimes.
OW again. teeth pressure is horrible.
purple grass and silver sunsets,- alena.
i was green-ed at 12:36 am
Sunday, February 12
you're really pissing me off.
i cant stand the way you talk to me on MSN just to tell me " OMGAWSH im so busy i have so many commitments so much work so much this so much that im gonna die. " then you start listing your extra subjects (BIG DEAL), you being able to play two instruments (I PLAY THREE, IN YOUR FACE, and well, though i dont play any of them well, i still pwn you, so there) and being in all kinds of communities & leadership groups and your mum expecting so much of you.
whatever. who decided to go for all those crappy communities? there're more capable people around, stop hogging up the places while being upset about it. stop telling me that you're busy and have so many commitments. if you were, you wouldn't talk to me on msn just to tell me that.
for your kindly information, half of singapore's schoolgoing population has just as many, if not more, commitments than you do. so stop complaining. just because i don't try to be monitress and twenty-five subject reps and a student councillor and activity organiser and school leader thingum and under a mentorship programme doesn't mean you get to pretend you're complaining, when you just want to show off.
gargh.
we're all busy people, hon. some of us actually bother to do whatever we're meant to be busy with, instead of getting invitations to parties and gatherings and meetings, then saying "oh i'm very sorry i really want to go but i have this, this and this on so i wont be able to make it, or i'll go really late."
then you appear three hours late, dressed up in school u alright, but looking as if you've just taken a shower & put on layers of makeup, & you look perfectly awake. & oh right, you'll always make sure you have your student council badge thingum on, & always carry a stack of thick books & files.
brilliant. i applaud you.
pissed,
-alena.
i was green-ed at 3:40 pm
Saturday, February 11
yo girls (e two of you ex-ycissians),
hope you're feeling much better! and sorry i couldn't be much of a help to you, i guess im not e comforting sort, but yeah. dont worry, life's really pretty dont let some of e people on e planet affect e way you enjoy it. seriously!
& ignore them. e two-faced backstabbers. they're seriously not worth your thinking & worrying about. anyways people who bitch are normally just fishing for compliments so yep. & e reason those byotches byotch about you is prob kuz they're jealous or just bored or pathetic. jealous, mostly, i should think. idiots.
yep. so dont let one frickin' person reel you, there's so many more people in e world, & you all have so many more friends, (REAL friends, that is) so yep. do e measuring! & since e nice good true friends are so much heavier on this side of the seesaw, you should just join em too & make this side so heavy that your one single byotchy 'FRIEND' on e other side flies up into e air when all of you on this side sit down, & then your byotchy 'FRIEND' will come falling from the clouds, landing & crashing on e seesaw with a sickening thud & splintering into splinters of a gazillionpieces, never to be jigsawpuzzled together again.
& dont worry about crying kris! perfectly normal, tis. & it really helps you just you know, cool off & come to terms with e whole problem.
& lastly but not leastly, dont hold back okay! i'll be here almost all of the time so just talk if you need to. i cant guarantee comforting & stuff & stopping you from feeling like crap, but i can listen to whatever you feel like ranting about. or you can make me rant but i do that entirely too well. so yeah. I'LL BE RIGHT HERE, WAITING FOR YOU. why does that sound familiar.
with harth, alena.
<3 GOODNESS IM TURNING BIMB!
first meeting with mentor tomorrow wootz can't wait & im gonna sleep soon so i dont fall asleep halfway through tomorrow. that would NOT be very nice, after all. & wow busy day. after smp i'll eat lunch somewhere, rush home from wherever i am, practice guzheng, then go for guzheng, go home, then off to ronnie's house to discuss maths sia. i SIGH.
& obs packing list! so much stuff. i need to get a swimsuit, though i dont think we'll need it but e list says we need one (DARN), as well as a pair of sandals. good old bata, cheap & comfy. heh. so what if its cheapo!
went to jurong point today, bought a tee from giordano, its light green & has giordano's famous ME thingums on it. ladida. quite nice actually i bought it mostly because it was 8 bucks & light green. was largely tempted to get a black one, til i realised black is a waytooangsty colour & i have a lot of it already. ohh well.
parqueted wood & polished marble,-alena.
i was green-ed at 12:02 am
Tuesday, February 7
doritos are HARTH!
oh hbo was showing return of the king today and so i managed to watch about half an hour, the last part. wonderful, it is. lord of the rings is so much love.
& whats kool is that lord of the rings & chronicles of narnia have a fatherly figure, the type of mentor who dispenses advice and
sacrifices themselves. aslan & gandalf both die, but later are resurrected. hm, where've i heard that before. so yep i absolutely harth christian allusions. aragorn is lurvely. & i think e hobbits are by far e best actors! followed closely by gimli & legolas & aragorn of course. whats really sad is that orlando bloom did such a fantastic job in LOTR as e cutesy lil elf with the interesting hair and pretty ears, but he cant act quite as well (not well @ all actually) in other thingums. ohh well.
oh right. & im here to complain about my right arm muscle. the muscle thats highest up e arm, i cant recall what its actual name is. anyhows, since september last year, i think, everytime i play badminton, and when the shuttle goes really high, i just unconsciously execute a smash, &
every single time i do that, my muscle over there cramps up.i dont really know like whether it IS a muscle cramp, or not. but anyways it feels strange like out of place, & really painful @ first, but it isnt out of place technically, because i can still manage to move my arm, except that it'd be like really shaky and i wont be able to clench my fingers for a while. & then after a while, the muscle suddenly locks back into place (at least, thats how it feels like) the pain subsides and i can move it naturally, but there'll be an annoying ache for a day or so. annoying. very.
happened today again in basketball, when i was attempting to get the ball off gloria. just suddenly i have no idea how, but it happened again. jeesh.
i told swayn about it & she said its because i play tennis. im like HUH that doesnt make sense kuz tennis should EXERCISE the muscle plenty so technically it wouldnt cramp. & shes like probably because you're used to smashing a tennis ball which has much more force than a shuttle so the overforce results in muscle cramp.
interesting theory, but lynette doesnt have the problem whad. & her smash is like, twenty-seven times harder/faster/stronger/prettier than mine.
SIGH.
oh yeah. i think im going to present myself to docmok (smp assoc prof mentor) as a bimbo. & talk like this when i email him:
i lUuuUb yOoOuuU dEeeZ maAaArrRcCch loRxXxZzX
which roughly translates to i love you this much lorh.
teehee. was planning to get a hot pink lab coat to traumatise him, but i figured i'd traumatise liza first, followed by traumatising myself & everyone else who knows my preference of colours, thus i think i shall stick to white. or lime green, if i can find one. HEE.
lime green volkswagen beetles (MY DREAM CAR! & i saw another one today)
and orange piggy banks (the one i got from taka),
-alena.
i was green-ed at 10:49 pm
Monday, February 6
its when the movie ended at 9.05, and at 10.15 that im sitting here to post, yet my eyes are still red and puffy, that you know the movie's great. not that im a very good judge, i cry in almost every movie.
the movie rawked a lot of ass.im feeling a lot of SPORE pride! (haha, i quote cheronne: if australians are called aussies, then we should be called SPORES!) i not stupid too is the only movie i've ever watched so far, that can MAKE me cry and laugh. and know that if i watch it again i'll cry and laugh even more.
AHHHHHHH. so nice.
shall stop whining about it. but it really is awesome. jack neo is wonderful, seriously. i mean inotstupid2 PWNS every other movie that i used to love to bits, be it the lame soppy ones (read: nicholas sparks) or the ones with great scenery, battle and stuff (read: TROY), or the ones that make me laugh til it hurts (read: lion king 1.5, hugh grant comedies). its also better than all e taiwanese dramas with e dramatic endings and stuff ahhhhh. IM HAPPY TO BE HALF SPORE! WE HARTH YOU NEO!
and i was serious about that.
OHANDOH. the soundtrack, that song that sounds completely jaychouish in i not stupid too is wunnerful! yep i'll prob rewatch sometime soon, like, during the week if i can find some random time and random cash. hee.
apparently channelnewsasia did a report on geppers! in GET REAL. yay how fun. i've to say, im absolutely proud of being a gepper wootz! & its sad MOE is trying to disintegrate gep larh. like spend so long building the programme, then now, introduce ip and e entire thing collapses.
& being a gepper is so much more than just the scholarship and different classes & awesome teachers, and being criticized by others and being called ELITIST coughcough.
gep's a great big nice comfy family! (tell me i dont sound like barney.) i mean see the bonding between 310, 311 & 312, its like i dont know. jolynn (from c-lit) was asking me when jasmine & melo & them geog people met us in the library on the way back to class, like " you're all really good friends with each other right, in gep? "
its something that very few other places offer. i'd really miss it in like jc & then after a levels when we all go our separate ways. sigh. i harth you, gep!
joshua ang (who used to be, and is even more goodlooking)
& shawn lee (who has turned out really goodlooking though he wasnt so in i not stupid part 1)
,-alena.
i was green-ed at 10:17 pm
Sunday, February 5
I HARTH QUIKSILVER SO MUCHLY!
i dont know why, i guess its about e same as ripcurl, and e same as billabong, as in e things they have, but i luff quiksilver so much more.
i found a funky quiksilver-cum-billabong-cum-levi's store near xiaoguilin. ahahaha. no need to go all e way to heeren to drool now. actually e only thing i actually bought fr that heeren store was like my pencilcase. but anyhowdies.
im waiting waiting waiting for a pasar malam to pop up somewhere near my place. i havent seen one in AGES argh and i miss e food so badly! plus all e funky nice clothes and stuff. yayers. but mostly e food.
andand. i saw this REALLY PRETTY jacket at the baleno in IMM yesterday and was going to buy it but they didnt have my size! (for once, that means the ones they had were too big.) (but of course, thats only because the jackets are malecut) so one day in the far future, ill go to jurong point's baleno and get one. its dark grey and awfully comfy.
tea cups and coffee bowls,
-alena.
i was green-ed at 2:14 pm
Friday, February 3
because i feel like blogging, and lattes taste good.i said i was a dork yesterday. according to melly, a dork is a male whale's reproductive organ. oh dearie me.
I PASSED MY CHINESE ZUOWEN TALKING ABOUT BAMBOO! gloats.
so! today was seriously awesome. i mean the SMP launch thingum @ NAP. which stands for ngee ann poly, btw. i never had any idea it was that near our school! i mean clementi just doesnt sound that closeby to bukit timah. but it is, sort of. so the launch itself wasn't THAT fun. as in, the people talking. most of the ge branch people were reading straight out from the pretty booklet that we got. i dont know, felt like hurling things @ them and telling them that we can READ, thank you very much. but we had nice refreshments! like these tiny lil egg tarts were positively droolable, both literally and figuratively.
but the NAP people, like the lab technician who told us all about lab safety, was really funny. and the other NAP guy whose accent i took years to figure out and in the end just asked him outright what it was, he was awesome too. teaching us about aseptic techniques. which apparently means doing things in a clean manner and keeping bacteria as far away as possible and at a minimum. which was a boring topic but he managed to engage us, so that was kool.
and i think the NAP people are so awesomely nice. the campus rawks too, being like cojoined with SIM. they get gorgeous labs.
& so it happened that NAP's open day was today too! so being boliao, brenda liza & i made our way to visit the labs & peek @ what people do. it was SO DARN KOOL, like there was this liquid nitrogen thing, where the guy put a pipette in it for 10 seconds, took it out and smashed it with a hammer because it'd turned into glass-like thingum. kuz liquid nitrogen is like neg. 190 degrees? fun fun.
then there was a whole bunch of other really kool things but the open day ended @ 6 and our launch ended @ 5 so we had really little time to explore. i bought this 4 bucks thingum, theres supposed to be a strand of DNA in it, but i suspect mine either fell out or decomposed to nothing. anyhows, its orange and it looks like a vial, really really small and they put it like a pendant onto a necklace! so fun right! im gonna wear it for the weekend. its pretty. brenda and liza bought a PINK one for ms chee hahahahaha i think ms chee would rather die than wear it larh. but its so nice.
and while we were worrying about why we couldn't contact assoc. prof henry mok, who's our mentor, we decided to call him on monday to see whats happening. but just now online brenda popped up to tell me that he REPLIED OUR EMAIL! and he sounds darn nice. really, and kuz hes an assoc prof hes not free and all, so he has this grad student to help us out with a lot of stuff, which's kool.
prospects for smp's looking great!
now i trot off to continue deciphering our topic, which, after much reading of wikipedia notes, i still understand nothing of. "Sub-cloning and expression of mutants of the anti-apoptotic Mcl-1 protein for study of small molecule inhibitor binding using NMR" blinks. ohh well. i'll figure it out somehow.
and im so utterly proud of myself. im going down to the nat.lib. tomorrow, FINALLY! i havent been there yet. quite embarassing, really. will be good to check out what range of reference books they have, both for smp & the various SIAs, as well as taking pictures and brochures for the LA SIA! wootz.
thank you God for making me happy.
oh right. i need to practice my prelude and fugue! class performances for music on monday. shivers at the thought. today ms foo gave me two new pieces and theyre really awesome, one is flight of the bumblebee, by some unknown russian dude, i chose to learn this one first kuz its nice nice nice, and the other is allegro something, by bartok. i heart. 20th century classical music is lurve.
broken chairs and graffitied tables,
- alena.
i was green-ed at 11:01 pm
Thursday, February 2
hello donkeys.
so today, for some completely unknown reason to me, i appear to be quite free! oh joy. as in i've finished whatever im meant to complete by tomorrow already so im all happy & bouncy. yay. i'll do a bit of blogging then go to read all my smp stuff later. around 12ish. its all so very confusing, really, biochem stuff. kuz i dont take bio & i dont understand dna stuff @ all. but ohh well. wikipedia has a way of making one understand things so much easier!
madeline is organising some mustard seed thingum! not very sure if i'll be able to go, might be doing smp stuff either in nus or national library so yeah. brenda & liza havent told me anything about it yet though. so OHH WELL!
ladidadums. im feeling quite constructive lately, finishing up the IH proposal! oh, i gloat. but it wasnt really that much work, kuz brenda & jayne did most of the preliminary lit. review so i just had to do the rest. which was pretty easy. and i really like our LA SIA topic kuz it sounds so darn fun okay! thanks to clee for helping us get e idea. "how to be a singaporean", a guidebook for the foreignor. fun! will have things like how to speak singlish and recipes for local food and also brochure like intros to the zoo and stuff so its very language based but its SO DARN FUN! and i'd have an excuse to go out to outrageous places. yay.
then c-lit SIA im probably not going to do with the 'gepclique' in the bsp class, but with jolynn from c-lit. shes awfully nice, really. and two ppl are gonna drop c-lit for e-lit, sigh. fun, fun!
i feel like a dork, saying SIAs are fun and thinking schools pretty kool and stuff. OHH WELL. busy as i might be, really, life is pretty kickass!
i gave cheronne her present today! FBTS, heh, her response when she got them. EW! in this bimbo way which was SO AMUSING wootz. and i even got her happy house wrapping paper and pink sparkly "fragrant" pen ink. shivers lol. ohoh and i borrowed this period drama from yangzi, about xiaozhuang and dorgon. so kool really.
and lastly but not leastly, LIPING JIE IS HERE! wootz i feel so loved. first lishin jie then liping jie. shes here until march, when we go back to m'sia too, and shes taking a fulltime english course, (the 5 hours a day, 5 days a week kind) at a language centre to brush up her english. shes awesome and loads of fun except she sleeps really early so i feel quite bad most of the time. since i sleep way later than her and my computer whirs and hums like eck.
i really really want to go to the christian bookstore at novena.
chinese new year was starific. i love it absolutely. kuantan is so much wonderfulness i cant imagine any chinese new year without being there. all the relatives, people, the sun, the gambling, the rocky beaches and the sea at night! is marvellous. and i get to practice my terrifying cantonese. heh.
talking about the sea at night, its the most beautiful thing in the world. in kuantan, that is. apart from the food, which IS really the best thing in the world. but anyways, the sea at night, between 8 and 9, is so darn kool because its just that you really understand the meaning of waves "crashing". its not slapping on the rocks like during the day, its seriously crashing and just completely choppy. the waves, i dont know, theyre entirely awesome in the way they dont fold and envelope one another. they rush and like typical chinese they push to get in front of the line. and match those waves with the gigantic sharp rocks on kuantan beaches, cum really big-grained sand with spiky thingums and bits of splintered seashell, its SO PUHREETAY!
well, me shall shut up and go off to do some reading. plus i needa get my dad to explain mol calculation. mole. mol. whatever. but apparently i need to know about it to work on smp. argh. but hes asleep. and the smp launch is tomorrow. ARGH. okay one more thing to study later from my olevel chem books. GAH.
apple pies and orange meringues,
-alena.
i was green-ed at 11:36 pm
