Tuesday, January 10
happy hari raya haji, my lurvely friends!
anyways, today was a relatively uneventful day. i woke up in e morning, played a bit of online tetris (which REALLY KICKS THE ASS), ate pineapple tarts & chipsmore, then sat down with this music book wei lent me to photocopy so i was basically just reading it through. while chatting, of course. AND I CHATTED TO KIT LENG (or sarah) today! hahaha long time no talk. also found that four ex-pepspers are in ny too! one of them being XINXI, which is kinda funkeh & she's in 305 so i'll find some opportunity to talk to her.
can't wait for the primary 2-3 peps band percussion gathering! good memories lol. i loved band, really, & percussion really was teh rock for me. probably kuz i was actually good @ it. & i loved the variety offered in percussion, not like other instruments. you play oboe, you only play oboe and thats just too bad. i have nothing against oboe players, truly! just e first random instrument that popped up.
gosh i cant stand my mum right now. kuz alicia & albert are gonna come over tomorrow, she's like " i'm telling you, dont just because ppl are coming, you neglect your studies. " im like WHAT THE SHIT oh i see so thats how much resilience you think i have, is it?! and i hate the way she's saying it as if i've already done it, or its a foregone conclusion that i WILL do it, so its really annoying. IT PISSES ME OFF AND MAKES ME WANT TO KICK SOMEONE WHERE IT REALLY HURTS. i feel just like maybe going out tomorrow night partying with them or something, after the way she said that to me. gosh.
shall calm down, which means reading the Bible later. wonderful method of cooling one's temper.
my mum's pms-y or something. or just plain grumpy kuz of the rain that hasnt stopped since like forever. but i dont get why she vents her anger on my dad & me. my dad argues & retaliates of course, but i've given up doing that kuz there's simply no point.
if someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to him the other. i think its rubbish & its not the way i do things, but its in the Bible. so i have to follow it. but i only apply this rule when i know i deserve the 'slap'. in which these cases, i dont.HARRUMPH.
i was almost on the verge of cooling down, when my mum just stormed out of her room and scolded me. why? kuz a week ago, alicia asked me if she knew where they sold duty-free liquor in s'pore. i said i think its only in e airports and i didnt tell my mum kuz er, LIKE THAT'S ANYTHING SERIOUS. alicia is NINETEEN for gawsh's sake and is capable and mature enough to drink liquor if she knows she can take it!
& today anyways simon sooksook came & was chatting about how alicia wanted to buy liquor & all, & i added in that alicia also told me about it. that was like @ dinner time, and NOW my mum comes & tell me off about it.
mum - why didnt you tell me about alicia etc etc etc.
me - she just said it offhandedly, asking where they sold duty free liquor.
mum - when did she tell you
me - about a week ago
mum - how come you didnt tell me?! you're hiding a lot of things from me. (in extremely pissed tone)
then she went back into her room, THANK GOODNESS.
i cant freaking stand it. seriously, who does she think she is?! GOD?! and i think i have MY RIGHT to tell her what I want and what i KNOW is necessary. and this isnt. i also cant stand the way she criticizes everybody on my dad's side of the family. dammit. the way she criticizes everyone but herself. maybe she doesnt realise, but people have PATIENCE LIMITS. and my fuse is very very short and has been broken too many times but somehow i just keep finding more patience for her. i find excuses for her stupid temper & the way she flares & nags, but there will be a day i can't. gosh, when will SHE learn.
she just completely spoilt my day. which was meant to be good kuz its my birthday celebration. i got a hundred each from her, my dad, & simon sooksook. plus a $50 voucher for popular from edmund sooksook which is so darndedly kool. & its for cd-rama too.
& what does my mum say? "dont buy CDs theyre useless & expensive, buy USEFUL things. and you should keep your money in the bank kuz you'll lose it." for your information, dearest mother, i am FIFTEEN in four days. and PERFECTLY CAPABLE of making my own decisions.
i know i'll think this post is painfully childish tomorrow, but whatever. i needed to rant.
i was green-ed at 10:55 pm
