just so green-ed;
((:

Tuesday, January 31
well im back from malaysia, it kicked ass, lifes good.
and ive piles of homework so i cant blog.

will blog when time comes along though. heh.
just on a sidenote. I LOVE MY CURRENT DP!

Tuesday, January 24

gah what's wrong with me.
i dont think im going to be able to survive in music class.
but i still really want to continue with it.
of course i will continue.
i have the feeling i might even want to do alevel music.
gosh.

ive even started listening to more classical music now.
sigh. its actually not bad and really pretty. kuz i remember when my daddy gave me this collection of golden classics in 4 CDs, and im listening to CD2 right now. has awesome pieces.
and one must say tchaikovsky's nutcracker is absolutely the best thing an orchestra can pull off. its about e prettiest thing i've ever heard so far. =D

have a nice day ppl! chinese new year's on sunday and i've just spent an hour or so making really trashy cny deco for our class. sigh. now to study music & clit.

Sunday, January 22

well after much searching around various sports shops, i've decided that it is impossible to get my beloved head nano titanium s1 or s4, simply because i havent seen it anywhere. dargh how pathetic. and annoying and pissy.

so i've a new goal for the end of the year. as in a new pinch-every-penny-and-hopefully-get-enough-for-this-ridiculous-thing-i-dont-need goal. A MARIMBA! yes so funkeh to have one right in my room and like just tinkle away all i want! with the nice soft mallets, of course.

i loveth the sound of the marimba. woody, nasal and lower than a xylophone but OH SO PRETTY and its made of wood! well, & metal tube thingums. but thats all not counted.

im being unrealistic. but who gives a crap, and whoever set the standards for realistic, sensible and whatnot probably wasnt a very realistic sensible persona himself.

meanwhile i shall start wondering, of all the instruments i've learnt, i've never actually blown anything, except a recorder but that doesnt count of course. the recorder is, in my opinion the most uncreative, stupid, and unappealing instrument. a thorn in music's side.

IM RANTING ABOUT RUBBISH AGAIN.

youth was nice today. "in Christ alone" got stuck in my head so i came home to figure out the chords and play it its so darn nice!

everythings lovely. i haven't done my homework yet. duh. but im feeling bad about it kuz i think doing homework on sundays is just...wrong. like wrong in that sense of wrong, unless like i truly rushed my ass off on saturday and friday but STILL cant finish. which is definitely not the case over here. well in a way it is. considering i was out until 9 yesterday and on friday too. tis still not a very good excuse though.

all the SIAs are piling on like er, ants on jellybeans. so i've been busy! well sort of. went to JRL yesterday for about 3 hours, 6-9 and am planning to make that my weekly regular times for visit! got an aung san suu kyi book, she is absolute HARTH! then 1 book on ageing population of s'pore, 1 on nation-building politics in s'pore, 1 book on nationalism & globalisation east & west, 1 really awesome but thick and chunky book on e history of e Bible which has loads of really kool thingums inside, & a kool maths book to decide what topic to do for e maths SIA.

today took a look @ e church bulletin, they're conducting a whole bunch of talks on how the da vinci code is THIS & THAT and im just like whats the big fuss. my mum calls the book evil. im like no its not, dan brown's a good writer. just that the facts he chooses to present are crap, but think about it really, theres a reason the books put on FICTION and not in like reference books.

but fact is you cant not admit that dan browns a rawkass writer. he manages to really put you in the place of the langdon person who like has an affair with every woman he works with. but thats not the point. anyways he makes you feel the tension and the stress piling up and i think very few authors can do that. like angels & demons, the pace of everythings terrific. digital fortress too. deception point i forgot what the story was about exactly, roughly about this searock was it? anyways i loved the ending of that. really poignant. and davinci code. dont you get hooked on trying to solve the mysteries?! like, the apple one.

hmph what a lot of ppl dont realise is that instead of attacking the theory itself, theyre attacking dan brown & the davinci code. i mean dudes, go walk into any popular, you see that BIG black and red book that says HOLY BLOOD HOLY GRAIL thats always put in display beside dan browns books? well thats where brown got most of his ideas for davincicode so gosh go attack THAT book. brown is merely putting some random untrue facts into a book to create a funky thriller.

meanwhile i really want to read "the bible code"! jolynn (from clit) suggested it muchly and in turn i recommended lee strobel's various books. ladida.

as for now. I CANT STAND LITTLE KIDS NOT EATING ENOUGH BECAUSE "THEY DONT WANT TO GET FAT". i think the real pandemic threatening the world is not bird flu or sars or dengue or WHATEVER. its the stupid brainwashing of the people that being fat is worse than being a skeleton when in fact theres no difference between the two. just like you can get burnt with strong alkalis AND acids.

look in any newspaper, and chances are after two or three flips youll see an ad for a slimming centre. its so ludicrous, its almost funny. and the irony of it all. walking down orchard road one will realise that 60% of the females are underweight, 10% are borderline underweight, 10% are normal, 10% are chubby and 10% are overweight. yet you ask all of them and theyll say theyre fat or have a sagging ass or have spare tyres or BLAH.

for you ridiculous people out there. think. when the world runs out of food, itll be the fat people who survive the longest because their bodies can feed of themselves. lol, lavender's long ago theory.

meanwhile, i have better things to do than go and worry about becoming obese. namely overdue homework.

Thursday, January 19

i HARTH cny!

yep i do. chinese new year is absolutelymy favourite season/festival/celebration in e entire year. its so happy and cheery and so much red/gold and everyone's happy. & no, its not just kuz of the hongbaos that i love it.

SO im in a considerably betteer mood now, less guilt, less shibai-ness. just general blandness. as if thats a lot of an improvement. i hate being bland and having no opinion on a lot of things. its just not me. but its the easiest way of doing things, and sometimes i just BE bland so i can lie back, relax, and breathe.

school's relatively hectic, what with the countless number of SIAs, and the different deadlines for each of them. not to mention different groups and all, makes organising hard. in the first place, even if it WAS the same group, organising a time where everyone is free is nearly impossible if you ask me.

so im making a 310 '06 scrapbook, not for any particular reason. just for me to flip through in the faaaar future. so far i've nothing in it except one page of quotes, a treasury loanshark note, and a picture of my very own bus sign! HAs. am bringing cam tomorrow to take more pictures of stuff. heh.

im such a moodswinger. kuz i think life kicks ass right now. and it does!

Wednesday, January 18

on and on and on and on.

oh well so. these strange feelings that i get nowadays. which involves a lot of guilt. like that day i was in e school library, looking through a bunch of books on famous composers. then suddenly the library phone rang and for a split second i had a vision that it was my mum calling up to find me to maul me for something, and i actually almost panicked. i use that word so much these days. maul. i dont know why i felt that way, i think im turning paranoid. i dont even know why.

i guess a massive guilt attack plus two entire days of reflecting on all the things i feel guilty about has a serious effect on me in general. kuz i really cant shake it. im doing work thats due MONDAY, for goodness' sake, and visiting EViL everyday but somehow its still hanging there. like i've committed a sin so huge that nothing can save me from judgment. and for only once in my entire life so far, reading the Bible doesn't help me to calm down, relax, or anything.

dammit.

i hate feeling guilt. right now its attacking really badly, kuz its so silent except for the whirring of my fan. i really wish it'd rain, i love midnight rains, and they make so much noise and make me feel someone's there to listen.

gosh.

well on a lighter note, schools been great and i've survived perfectly fine. today, after school and decorating a bit, WE FINISHED THE NOTICE BOARD WOOTS! then jasmine & i went to bukit timah plaza, the place outside ntuc where theres a TINY food court with like 4 stalls i think. sat there and talked. it was a very broken conversation, like not active talking, but i really enjoyed it muchly.

the blander a person's expression is, the more secrets they're hiding. something jasmine said when i asked her if she felt that i have a secret life or something. and she says my expressions ARE very bland. like no expression, basically.

i dont know if im hiding secrets or not. firstly, i've nothing to hide. secondly, if i've nothing to hide, then why do i put on a placid expression? thirdly, if by some random chance i have secrets to hide, putting on a blank face doesnt make it any less obvious. fourthly, who do i need to hide secrets from anyways.

im turning too angsty for my own good, so DARN IT ALL and have a nice day!

Saturday, January 14

" a ship in harbour is safe, but that is not what ships are built for. " - William Shedd.

im fifteen, oh yeah.

the number seems so alien to me right now, but OH WELL WHO CARES. i've been 15 for almost e whole day! wootz. as i told lynette though, i dont feel any different except that i can start learning how to drive in TWO YEARS, count that seven hundred & thirty days! if my maths doesnt fail me, i think thats correct. and it ALSO means that i have 2 weeks to get my ic done or else i get mauled by e ministry of something. manpower perhaps. or education. nope cant be. oh wait immigration & checkpoints authority. says so on the envelope telling me to go get my ic.

talking about being mauled by ministries, i really need to brag about my most wunnerful birthday present. given to me by chanyiclairelouiseliannyuechinmelly. six people & so cheapo harh give me present that didnt cost them anything! hahaha but i love it. basically its a bus plate thing, apparently they were in a double decker bus & somehow managed to steal e plate that says what number e bus is. so i currently have a 154 sign in my room, which says HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALENA at the back of it. how amusing! but seriously, its a great present.

so today eating @ tekka was pretty great, then roaming around, getting my QUIKSILVER PENCIL CASE (!!) & stuff. then nice nice people texting to wish me happy birthday!

ladida, i know its my birthday so its a joyous occasion & all that, but well i decided to be a guaikia & do some FANXING-ING. so for now i'll be a bit ... non-hyper and non-cheerful. maybe even slightly angsty. SIGH. i do hate angst so very much, but i do get angsty. thanks to my temper which i STILL am unable to control fully.

so yesterday @ piano lesson, i sat at the piano. [duh] and ms foo asked me to play my nocturne in e minor. & i felt slightly well, nervous, kuz i cannot play it for shit. then while i fumbled my way through e left hand notes & basically sight-read through e rest, i found myself really pissed @ myself.

why couldn't i play the stupid piece?! i've been learning it for what, 2.5 mths, & im no better than when i started. & e worst thing is, e piece isnt difficult. its just tedious. which means all i have to do is tinkle away for about half an hour a day and i would've been able to master it in 1.5 mths. but no, 2.5 months on, and im still playing absolute crap.

so that was when i started to feel shibai. then when i got on the mrt to go back home, i was thinking through everything i have in my life that's important to me, and i feel shibai. very darned shibai.

firstly, for my QT. there're TWENTY FOUR hours in a day, & somehow i cannot spare e time to do QT properly. a rushed 10 minutes most of e time, before my eyelids crash down. why?! why is it i cant even single out a good 20 minutes to half an hour for God, when i can linger in front of e TV & watch CHANNEL EIGHT DRAMAS for an entire hour?

then, tennis. i love tennis, i really do. im not that great @ it, not very good @ all, in fact. but the least i could do is turn up for training right?! but i dont. in fact, i've been ponning since e end of december. & i have no excuses, tired, busy, blah blah. kuz im not. i come home & slack away my life. or my sit in e library under e pretense of reading science journals. which i am, but which is more important, training - a commitment i make, or reading science journals - in a manner that seems more like im reading 8days or something.

after which, school. im not stupid, im not slow. that much can be said. im not currently very busy, kuz SMP & CIP isnt all settled yet so i have two afternoons free until february starts. so i have THAT MUCH TIME, & do i practice piano? or guzheng? do i do QT? nope. i go to coro, i eat & play cards. on e first day of school, i got to bugis & raffles city, for gawshs sake. i pon cca. & i say i want to be a good student this year, or @ least try to be. we've only had one official piece of work so far, maths, my strongest subject. & guess what? i dont do it but go to school & KOPE FROM JAYNE. & i didnt even feel guilty.

everything i put as central in my life, is ALREADY falling into ruins. & we're not even halfway through e first month of e darned year. i seriously have no idea how i became so shibai. GARH.

gosh i need help. so off to pray i go.

i really need to set new resolutions for my 15 year old onwards life. & i seriously need to plan my time WISELY. okay so my future life is that fr mon-fri, i'd probably be done with activities by 6, reaching home by 6.45, then showering, eating, etc by 7.30. which means i have from 7.30 all the way to about 1. so that makes it FIVE AND A HALF HOURS A DAY. take away about half for time with God, so that makes it five. take away another hour for piano, so its FOUR HOURS. see, i actually have that much time in my life to work on SIAs & homework & whatnot so i absolutely have no reason to say i cannot complete my work.

yep, settled.

OHOH but first here are some inspirational quotes from famous people which i koped from cheronne's council book & old nanyang diary & stuff lizzat.

" an eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind. " - Ghandhi.

" do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. " - Ralph Waldo Emerson

" the harder you fall, the higher you bounce. " - unknown.

Thursday, January 12

have been letting e tune of 'differences' by ginuwine just come over me. e lyrics are very bland & normal but e melody & harmony & all is just - bliss. wonderful. has a calming effect, but also sortuf sad in a way. makes me think of things that i'd prefer not to think about, things that are long past. but it IS amazing.

so on a lighter note, today went to PEPS w/ jiawei, & i think i've managed to sort of settle my csp for nyaa already! hopefully. & e article featuring brenda is up on our class notice board , plus jasmine's working on something that says " our class pride " or something. which she is! i really admire her, wootz. & her brother! EIGHT A1s for his As!

so i'll just give a round-up for all e subjects i've been taking & how theyve been going!

lang arts - has been loads of fun. being my general worst subject, its been so much better than expected! somehow calvin lee is like e easily-bullyable type. & he's so darned nice, starting off lessons with jeopardy for mythical stuff & today was tictactoe for biblical references! twas awesome. & whats better, SIA is anything we want, which means i'll prob. combine it w/ integ humans!

maths - tan chik leng is nice but he's way too nervous, shouldnt have started teaching w/ our class. a more complacent, calm class would be ideal. for my SIA its doing some project with cheronne's "THE WINNERS" hahahahaha which includes melissa sng & lisian SO YES IM THE SHORTEST. we're going to do something for the maths cluster trail for sec 1s & maths amazing race for sec 2ers!

chinese - teacher's bland. we've done nothing much. only things livening up class would be jasmine & cheronne. seriously. plus did a crappay zuowen yesterday, which im sure i flunked, considering the way i ended so weakly. GAHHH. what happened to me im supposed to be good @ chinese! SIA's with chinese-lit, which in turn is indiv.

chineselit - teacher's fun but we havent DONE anything interesting yet. but SHEDIAO's going to be one of our texts! WOOTZ! aint that just absolutely marvellous. cant wait. she gave us loacker today, while in the library, which is entirely funkeh of her. plus kuz im a stranger in that room, its kool i've made a friend! jolyn, who's really bubbly & christian too =D

physics - my fave subject! tan boon hian is adorable & funny in his inaudible way, while managing to confuse all of us while he's teaching. i realise e way to stop myself from misunderstanding, is not to listen when he talks. wel listen but not to overconcentrate on him. concentrate more on the slides he's showing, and its easy. while doing worksheets however, consult him for help! kuz he's really a softie. & its annoying kuz i dont know nothing about our physics SIA yet!

integ humans - im e ever-responsible rep. COUGH. its seriously dry & boring, this nation-state stuff. plus e methods of teaching arent really terribly engaging. rach khoo's nice though, but dont know anything about SIA too! am in group w/ jayne, jasmine & SOMEONE though.

chemistry - paul nah has a really really bland flat voice with no emotion. but his lab stuff is really awesome. & he's awfully well organised, but i think he can get scary when he chooses to be which is like GAH WHATEVER. im right now seriously wishing that i'll get the nus chem project i want for smp, so i can convince him to replace or something. ahh well. im in a group w/ jasmine & zheng shan. unless im allowed to replace!

SO YEP THATS it for now. pe we're doing basketball & we get chang tsai.

nothing much importantuh. i need to go redo smp proposals, darnnit.

Tuesday, January 10

happy hari raya haji, my lurvely friends!

anyways, today was a relatively uneventful day. i woke up in e morning, played a bit of online tetris (which REALLY KICKS THE ASS), ate pineapple tarts & chipsmore, then sat down with this music book wei lent me to photocopy so i was basically just reading it through. while chatting, of course. AND I CHATTED TO KIT LENG (or sarah) today! hahaha long time no talk. also found that four ex-pepspers are in ny too! one of them being XINXI, which is kinda funkeh & she's in 305 so i'll find some opportunity to talk to her.

can't wait for the primary 2-3 peps band percussion gathering! good memories lol. i loved band, really, & percussion really was teh rock for me. probably kuz i was actually good @ it. & i loved the variety offered in percussion, not like other instruments. you play oboe, you only play oboe and thats just too bad. i have nothing against oboe players, truly! just e first random instrument that popped up.

gosh i cant stand my mum right now. kuz alicia & albert are gonna come over tomorrow, she's like " i'm telling you, dont just because ppl are coming, you neglect your studies. " im like WHAT THE SHIT oh i see so thats how much resilience you think i have, is it?! and i hate the way she's saying it as if i've already done it, or its a foregone conclusion that i WILL do it, so its really annoying. IT PISSES ME OFF AND MAKES ME WANT TO KICK SOMEONE WHERE IT REALLY HURTS. i feel just like maybe going out tomorrow night partying with them or something, after the way she said that to me. gosh.

shall calm down, which means reading the Bible later. wonderful method of cooling one's temper.

my mum's pms-y or something. or just plain grumpy kuz of the rain that hasnt stopped since like forever. but i dont get why she vents her anger on my dad & me. my dad argues & retaliates of course, but i've given up doing that kuz there's simply no point. if someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to him the other. i think its rubbish & its not the way i do things, but its in the Bible. so i have to follow it. but i only apply this rule when i know i deserve the 'slap'. in which these cases, i dont.

HARRUMPH.

i was almost on the verge of cooling down, when my mum just stormed out of her room and scolded me. why? kuz a week ago, alicia asked me if she knew where they sold duty-free liquor in s'pore. i said i think its only in e airports and i didnt tell my mum kuz er, LIKE THAT'S ANYTHING SERIOUS. alicia is NINETEEN for gawsh's sake and is capable and mature enough to drink liquor if she knows she can take it!

& today anyways simon sooksook came & was chatting about how alicia wanted to buy liquor & all, & i added in that alicia also told me about it. that was like @ dinner time, and NOW my mum comes & tell me off about it.

mum - why didnt you tell me about alicia etc etc etc.
me - she just said it offhandedly, asking where they sold duty free liquor.
mum - when did she tell you
me - about a week ago
mum - how come you didnt tell me?! you're hiding a lot of things from me. (in extremely pissed tone)

then she went back into her room, THANK GOODNESS.

i cant freaking stand it. seriously, who does she think she is?! GOD?! and i think i have MY RIGHT to tell her what I want and what i KNOW is necessary. and this isnt. i also cant stand the way she criticizes everybody on my dad's side of the family. dammit. the way she criticizes everyone but herself. maybe she doesnt realise, but people have PATIENCE LIMITS. and my fuse is very very short and has been broken too many times but somehow i just keep finding more patience for her. i find excuses for her stupid temper & the way she flares & nags, but there will be a day i can't. gosh, when will SHE learn.

she just completely spoilt my day. which was meant to be good kuz its my birthday celebration. i got a hundred each from her, my dad, & simon sooksook. plus a $50 voucher for popular from edmund sooksook which is so darndedly kool. & its for cd-rama too.

& what does my mum say? "dont buy CDs theyre useless & expensive, buy USEFUL things. and you should keep your money in the bank kuz you'll lose it." for your information, dearest mother, i am FIFTEEN in four days. and PERFECTLY CAPABLE of making my own decisions.

i know i'll think this post is painfully childish tomorrow, but whatever. i needed to rant.

Wednesday, January 4

second day of school today!

pretty funky, i've decided to start collecting quotes. as in quotes fr our ridiculously hilarious classmates & teachers (SOME). class is turned pretty much wonderful thanks to peeps like cheronne & jasmine!

well, chinese or bsp today was a disappointment. it was so ... dreary & boring & dreary. e way she made us read, & showed us powerpoint slides of flowers & waterfalls kuz it was related to text, honestly i was like HUH?! & i truly hate e s'pore chinese texts. so ... weirdly immature. ahh well. @ least we stop having names like xiaoming & xiaohong. heh. hopefully lessons will start livening up a bit, kuz today, everybody in class was just dead. no comment, no this, no that, no nothing. sigh.

we had maths again, & i do think i like tcl after all! he's just fresh out from nie after all, and he's really very nice. & he's darnedly nervous plus 310's a handful to handle. 3 times 5 = 35 indeed, lol. i think he's deeply traumatised by us. but we're not THAT horrible right?

physics, was awesome. tbh has a good sense of humour & kuz we're mostly familiar w/ him e lessons' pretty spunky. WOOTS!!!! hahahaha e best subject on e planet, i swear.

then rubbishy talks in LT2 which shant be talked about. waste of saliva. & energy.

integ humans was MUCH better than expected, seriously. i was expecting social studies kinduf thing, geog + history, stuff i absolutely suck @, basically. but turns out it also includes political science (YAY!) , economics, anthropology & sociology! ahahahaha. wonderful. & rachel khoo is nice, though not very attention-commanding, but nice.

calvin lee seems darned nice too! like his voice & accent completely belie his outward appearance of burly build, emo glasses & punk hair. well we'll have him tomorrow so we'll find out, & also our first pure humans class! which means - chinese lit, all alone in 306 unknown to e rest of mankind. sob.

& i stayed back today after school since i was free, to make our noticeboard nice & pretty! pat on e back to jasmine for her wondrous artistic skills.

well well, tomorrow apparently theres cca orientation so i'll bring my racquet & pe gear just in case! i desperately need to play anyways, havent played for years. well, a week, actually. plus e exercise, e tan, AHH, bliss. & get to observe our sec 1 midgets!

so here goes quotes. btw my memory fails me so words might not be exact.

tbh - you can decorate your folders with something regarding physics, like newton, edison, mr tan ... (class erupts into laughter)

tbh - we'll be learning about waves like sound waves heat waves etc
jasmine - kallang wave!

(nicolette goes to get physics worksheets, someone says lets do kallang wave, and only a few scant people do it)
lisian - what kind of kallang wave is that?!
yingming - a failed one.

(tbh is talking about prefixes for SI units like deca, giga & centi)
tbh - last time they thought micro was the smallest, then they realised its nano ...
cheronne - then ask microsoft to change its name to nanosoft!

melissasng - (on e board) throw food wrappers in the dustbin right outside class or they'll think we've been eating in class which is so highly impossible.

(while listing e 6 social sciences in IH)
rkhoo - one more, come on do you know any more social sciences?
cheronne - lee kuan yew!

rkhoo - i studied anthropology in university, and when you go around and tell people that, they think you studied ants.
jasmine - (a few seconds later) isnt anthropology like a study of insects or something?

yepyep i LOVE THREE TEN!

Tuesday, January 3

SO, first day of sec 3.

thanks very much for buying the case for christ for me, charissa!

well pardon me very much for being CRUDE, but i simply must express & stress upon my views on this. WHY THE HECK AREN'T WE ALLOWED TO WEAR DARK-COLOURED BRAS? i think i've told quite a few people why im pissed about it already, so just bear w/ me & hear me out. firstly, most of mine are black or dark grey. secondly, e nanyang uniform is half transparent. if we wear a WHITE bra like we're meant to, & say someone pours a bucket of water over us, we'll be completely transparent, hence defeating e purpose of a bra. gah!!

okay, im kool, im calm. & i'll continue wearing whatever undergarment i LIKE, thank you very much.

so first day was pretty awesome, well no, actually. e audi talks were darned boring, & i dont have a particularly good feeling towards our HOLs. & e new maths teacher, he makes things really confusing! paul nah isnt quite as bad, he's actually really amusing. a bit quiet though. i have to strain to hear him talk. & thats pretty much all we did, for e entire day.

& i'm in a wondrous mood! kuz tbh's teaching us for physics & i've a crush on him. HAHAHAHA LOL but he's really cute though. & he teaches my favourite subject & although everybody else thinks hes a horrendous teacher i dont think so kuz he actually is quite humorous when he feels like it. & he's like so small & nerdy-ish cute like e last time he was bent down over a bunch of papers & walked around e corridors w/o lifting his head even ONCE. was damn funny!

& since maths is already ruined this year kuz of tcl, i'll just have to be thankful we still have tbh for physics. hopefully paulnah's good @ teaching chemistry, & our hcl/bsp teachers good, & i'll be a very happy person already!! heh.

so first day of school & e stress's piling up already. we've gotten our chemistry SIA thingums on IVLE, so darnnit!

anyhow, i love e class though! we have absolutely marvellous people who are kuku & funky & we have three aep peeps so we'll have pretty class tshirts & nice deco, they've already got an idea for decorating e back of our noticeboards by using zo-cards! doing either a mosaic or tile thingum. its awesome, seriously. then we have e chinese geniuses, yulin & felicia. e maths genius, gloria. e science genius, liza. e everything genius & born monitress, brenda! & e rest of e ppl are hyperly kuku starifically wunnerful!!

so can't wait, apart fr all e busyness & stuff that awaits us this coming year, this year should rawk a LOT of ass!

p.s. first day of school, & yuechin, jasmine & i went shopping right after. well shopping & roaming around, kuz i actually managed to control myself & not buy anything except a mcflurry! lol.

Sunday, January 1

should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind?
should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and days of auld lang syne?
for auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne

happy new year everybody out there on this pathetic planet of ours, & may your blessings be infinitely better than those you've had in 2005!!

so. its midnight, or zero hours into YEAR TWO THOUSAND AND SIX, wootz! & so to usher in e wonderful new year ahead of me, i'm going to devote a large portion of my time to write a loooong meaningful blog. e only problems that im not a literary person, nor a very thoughtful, philosophical type so my post will be extremely er, un new-year-like.

i'll start w/ how i disagree w/ e term "ushering in e new year". in e first place, e new year does not need to be ushered in like people in church who do not know where to sit. e new year doesnt give much of a damn where it sits. what people should say is, rushing to get out of e way as e new year ravages past. yep. & hoping you survive. sortuf like a hurricane.

naturally thats e more pessimistic e way of looking @ it. e way AYE look it is more of ohh yay a new year is here & i can rewrite my resolutions which i will definitely not keep & will rewrite one year later! therefore i've concluded that resolutions are useless, for me, & i very well shant bother to write em down here. heh.

SO. an entire year has passed, e whole of 2005, arguably one of e best & yet most unusual years in my life. e pinkworm reading bookclub, for example, which was e most fun i've ever had in yew chung, but also got me into e most trouble! not that i regret it, as i've said a gazillion times before, i never regret. then there's coming back to singapore & going through a 180 degree change in just about everything, plus getting e lowest average i've ever received in my life, sigh. & making new friends, separating from old ones (geographically! i mean) & i dont think i've ever gone through as many changes as i did in 2005.

& next year, i'll make it awesome. its meant to be! so i'll be quite busy i guess, w/ all those new things in my life but naturally i wont allow myself to get stressed out, kuz i do firmly swear that life's about enjoying oneself. dreams & aspirations are aplenty of course, but right now im too hyped up to name any!

so here's one resolution that i'll stress upon for this year: to spend more time with Him. Him being God, of course. which includes a great deal more quiet time than what i've done in 2005, as well as truly walking in Him. which will require a lot of effort so yep wish me luck dudes & dudettes!

i've actually run out of rubbish to crap about. so NEVERMIND. its e end of my post today. but its e start of a wunnerful new year! a fresh new start, like a blank piece of foolscap. oh darn school hasnt started & im ALREADY brainwashed.

so because i dont want to stop now though i've nothing to talk about, i'm gonna list 26 random things about myself i randomly thought of & randomly put down.

1. im currently reading memoirs of a geisha, which i borrowed fr san bookshop!
2. i have an inability to take pills. i simply cannot swallow & gulp.
3. i like wearing rings on my fingers, & black rubber bands on my wrists.
4. nivea has good deodorant.
5. i am so hopelessly materialistic that my mum says e only way i can survive when i grow up is find some billionaire husband.
6. i desperately want either a lime green or fluorescent orange volkswagen beetle in e future!
7. but, subarus are my favourite cars.
8. i wanna work w/ convicts & ex-cons in e future!
9. dan brown is love. michael crichton is love.
10. my sisters ambition is to be a mother when she grows up.
11. i dont really get stage fright. not that i go on stage a lot.
12. i love shellfish.
13. my three great passions are food, sleep & tennis.
14. i love kuantan, truly do. its my mummy's hometown but we always go back & i love all my relatives there & i love e place & i love tembeling (its our tiny tiny tiny apartment over there) & i love e beach over there even though its really rocky & it hurts ones feet but its still prettiful especially e rocks beside e hill, & @ night when the waves crash.
15. i have a weakness for white flowers
16. i think grass is e absolute symbol for life.
17. 17's my fave number!
18. i am excruciatingly lousy @ ite. computer & tech stuff in general.
19. e best friends of my life were made in s'hai.
20. pink is hated. absolutely absolutely hated. e only pink visible thing in my room right now is this cylindrical thing i use to put my bookmarks & stuff. but i like it kuz of e flying cow design! grey is love, though!
21. i swear my pens have feet.
22. my money as well.
23. i dont think im shallow. just kuz i dont wallow in self pity & complain about e miseries of e world & how nobody understands me & how im so depressed & act like everybodys against me or something, doesnt mean im shallow right?! gah like theres a problem i think life's pretty & wonderful & nice & just kuz im a spastic generally optimistic person.
24. SMOKERS ARE E MOST INCONSIDERATE HUMAN BEINGS IN E WORLD. and my dads one of them. sigh.
25. i am e absolutely most egoistical, spoilt, bratty, quick-tempered, lazy person you'll probably ever meet. but i do have SOME good points too, you know, i just dont show them a lot.
26. all you people out there, especially those suffering from e aftermaths of e tsunami, or Katrina, or terrorism attacks, or poverty or sickness or anything @ all, remember God's with you always! wootz.

and here i conclude my post, with two absolutely wonderful words with a wealth of meaning behind them. hakuna matata my friends!!

alena. girl. christian.
and God rawks my life!
ccm. peps. nyps.
yciss. nygh.
14 Jan 1991
LIMEGREENPIGGY!
WUXIA STUFF!
complicated.fickle.
eating. shopping.
cards.sleeping.
AZN PRIDE, woot!
watching tennis.
head nano ti. s4/s1!
piano. guzheng. guitar.
music in general
singing in e shower.
pigs & cows whee!
food. food. more food.
QUIKSILVER.
pinkworm readingclub.
linkin park. jj.
fir. energy.
mahjong. fruits.
grey, silver, green

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