& isnt life just beeyooteefool

Friday, December 30

i understand now why my parents never thought about being writers. i was starting on my commonwealth essay, which really pisses me off, btw, 1200-1500 words w e most RIDICULOUS topic that are absolutely crappay. & being a failure @ english & lit, naturally im at a horrific loss. apparently its compulsory, probably because this girl fr rgs won last year & e school feels we need to win too or something. pffft.

back to e point. so i needed a tribal name, like a non-english name that can be spelt. so i asked my dad if he could suggest any. & he's like roomba, tanba, kaba, laba, frooba, pumba, simba! i was like pa, its not e lion king!! then my mum. which ended up being even worse, kuz she suggested pocahontas. honestly, how original. & when i told her twas a guy that im planning to write about , she suggested coconot. COCO-NOT!! i now understand why she gave me such a strange name.

so im back to square one, but please do suggest some names. maybe papayat. or bananot.

so e new years coming soon soon soon & its gonna rawk! well not that i know, but im sure itll be pretty kool, kuz life's just absolutely marvelously fantastically prettiful. grins.

btw, i came back to singapore yesterday! & i got a beauteous new devotional for next year, from kuantan. cost a bomb but its so so nice. its called e 'one year book of christian history', though in fact it doesnt HAVE much history, its just stories about christians through e ages & how God touched their lives! really nice =D

yesterday i saw someone dressed in a lime green polo, tucked into pink jeans. it was a guy, too.

other interesting things that happened yesterday include me filling up e re-entry forms in e car on e way back to s'pore, & then suddenly my dad braked & i crashed into e seat in front & my glasses broke! so now im wearing my old glasses, i made new ones yesterday & i got my contacts TOO. wootz!

also, my parents found out about my two very very overdue books yesterday, the 'ten commandments' book & e 'encyclopaedia of musical instruments', I HAVE NO IDEA HOW, & also my commonwealth essay, needless to say, they were extremely pissed & i received a looooong lecture about my irresponsibility, which i am sorry to say is very well-deserved. sigh.

thus my resolutions for e new year are to
1) stop procastinating
2)) take more responsibility for things
3) stop procastinating
4) get more sleep.
5) stop procastinating
6) spend much much much more time for quiet time.
7) stop procastinating!

wish me luck, & school starts in 4 more days, cheers people! OH SHUCKS I CANT FIND MY DARNED NAME TAGS!!

p.s. i havent decided where i should go this year to countdown. suggestions?

i was green-ed at 2:11 pm

Sunday, December 25

ahh merry christmas! whoever visits this blog, anyways.

today went for church in e morning, which is pretty kool, once more e sermon meant nothing to me, but e worship was love. & ppl were darned nice larh. like oh she's brother lee's niece from singapore! kinda funny, but not e point. it was really embarassing though, being there alone with uncle lee & wei only. like i really dont understand why my dad & mum chose not to go, they went breakfasting instead. gah.

then lishin-jie drove wei & i to lulu-yee's daycare centre thing where they were having a party. & we played uno stacko + ate. interesting. & after that off to megamall! (btw, megamall is like one of e only hypermalls there are in kuantan. but it rawks, nevertheless.)

i love Christmas, its one of e seasons of e year i can really get into e spirit!

we also played mahjong yesterday HA which was kickass. & we've been playing taiti for practically e entire evening.

so anyways right now ling-yee & uncle lee are downstairs crooning away, karaoke-ing i mean, & extremely loudly too kuz of e mikes. i dont get e difference between singing w/ or w/o e mikes, ITS ALL THE SAME. its just some crazy notion of showing off one's apparently lovely voices. i apologise for my crude tone, but karaoke is one thing i cannot stand, not in e house. if its like @ kbox or something, a SOUNDPROOF place, its okay. but not in a person's house. & there's absolutely no escaping e singing. GARSH.

& i broke a new record! up to now, only ONE person has said i've gained weight! last time i came, everybody i met said so. but anyways ling-yee said it this time, " if she gets ONE OUNCE FATTER she's going to become obese!" i was like blink blink obese? chubby, yes. plump, yes. rotund, yes. fat, yes. but OBESE?! im sorry but my ego absolutely says i am NOT obese. gah. yes, im afraid my ego is a very bad-tempered horrible thing thats excessively large but TOO BAD.

anyways, off i go to seek quiet. they're singing really really horrible old chinese songs. it was so darnedly rude of them, i'd just stuck e king kong dvd into e player & it had ALREADY STARTED then uncle lee was like OH I HEARD KINGKONG SUCKS and im like no, everyone i asked said its good, and he's like, "no larh its just a remake of e 80s version & its no good @ all!" & ling-yee's like "come i want to karaoke! long time never sing already! must sing! kuai dian, ah-lee, find a cd & put it inside e player! everybody sing also!" everybody sing my ass. she's been hogging e mike. but anyways, so, without even so much as asking, kingkong was stopped & now e entire household has to endure their less than lovely voices.

ahh well, its really terrible of me to be so bad-tempered & talk about them like that. but im really pissed. not that that's a good excuse. i've just been in horrifying mood swings & right now its bad. bad. i think its kuz of the combination of lack of sleep, lack of respect, lack of my VOICE. i deeply apologise.

well i'll go read e Bible now to kool down then find some way of being nice to uncle lee & ling-yee. sigh.

i was green-ed at 8:38 pm

Friday, December 23

so my head's bursting w a stupid headache & i've a fever that i caught from goodness knows where. i mean i drank lots of water, didnt go dancing in the rain, didnt bath in ice water, and didnt stand in front of the fan or aircon for a consecutive hour. i didnt eat much oily fried stuff either. gah, perfect time to happen, the very day before we leave for kunantan!

well thank God its just a fever, kuz @ least its one of those sicknesses where im not confined to e bed so @ least i can blog & pack & worry. & print out christmas carol lyrics for e ppl in kuantan, kuz ha-yee's having a christmas party tomorrow & she's appointed me to lead e singing. gah w e state my throat is currently in, i can hardly do that. sheesh. well well will drown myself with water & honey & barley & WHATEVER cures sore throats. plus pray, of course.

anyways. church camp. i was really going to blog about it, but i dont have e time right now. but all im gonna say is, it was absolutely amazing. & i understand what people mean when they say renewal of faith. & e sermons were amusing but i didnt actually absorb anything, but worship! worshipping was teh rock, there's just something about worship that brings you TO God, like you're standing right in front of Him.

"You are El-Shaddai, You are my Adonai", ahh pretty pretty song. then camp theme song was awesome too, " and my eyes they look onto You always, and i am captured by Your majesty, all of my days, i will sing of Your greatness, all of my days, i will speak of Your grace, all of my days i will tell of Your wondrous love, Your love in my life, Your love! " & a gazillion others, well, they rawk so much ass.

so i've found an absolutely starific Christian bookshop in plaza sing, tis called trumpet praise & it has loads of devotions! plus a whole bunch of really cute things. Christian things. then e yamaha in plaza sing has a heck lot of gospel songs for guitar & piano! ladida, life rawks. yep must find some time to go there again soon, i got 'everyday with jesus' & 'daily bread', the non-free ones.

so off i go to kuantan (malaysia) tomorrow!

i was green-ed at 10:10 pm

Sunday, December 11

to say it in short, Christmas deco in our house is up & li-shin jie's here! which means shopping for christmas presents for everybody in m'sia & loads & loads of fun, wootz!

(and new contacts, & ear piercings.)

so dont read the rest of this entry, kuz the rest is lyrics to god rest ye merry gentlemen which is a rawkass Christmas carol too, yay!

God rest ye merry gentlemen
may nothing you dismay;
remember Christ our saviour
was born on Christmas day;
to save us all from satan's power
when we're gone astray;

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

in Bethlehem in Israel
this blessed Babe was born
and laid within a manger
upon this blessed morn
the which his Mother Mary
did nothing take in scorn

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

from God our Heavenly Father
a blessed Angel came;
and unto certain shepherds
brought tidings of the same;
how that in Bethlehem was born
the Son of God by name;

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

"fear not then," said the Angel,
"let nothing you affright,
this day is born a Saviour
of a pure virgin bright,
to free all those who trust in Him
from satan's power and might."

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

the shepherds at those tidings
rejoiced much in mind;
and left their flocks a-feeding
in tempest, storm and wind;
and went to Bethlehem straightway
the Son of God to find;

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

and when they came to Bethlehem
where our dear Saviour lay;
they found Him in a manger,
where oxen feed on hay;
His Mother Mary kneeling down,
unto the Lord did pray;

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

now to the Lord sing praises,
all you within this place;
and with true love and brotherhood
each other now embrace;
this holy tide of Christmas
all other doth deface;

O tidings of comfort & joy,
comfort & joy,
O tidings of comfort & joy!

i was green-ed at 5:28 pm

Saturday, December 10

hence, i decided to blog.

kuz i woke up this morning, lo & behold, in my cup of water i always put on my desk, i see five dead ants. i counted, yes, five. last time it was four. & before that it was one. amusing, no? so i wonder what it is in my room, or in my cup of plain tap water that is so fascinating to ants. fluorine, perhaps.

& everytime the number increases. gah!

so i'm busy looking for a suitable verse i can use to write up prettily & decorate for my mummy's friend who just realised she has cancer. she's kinduf been down lately (i mean duh. its cancer, not flu.) & basically moping around life thinking she has no more purpose merely kuz she's got cancer. well i think my best so far is isaiah 35. YES, isaiah again, its not my fault that i absolutely love love love isaiah, its def the most amazing book in e Bible.

if you've any other suggestions, please do tell me!!

so isaiah 35 verses 1 to 7 goes:

the desert and the parched land will be glad;
the wilderness will rejoice and blossom;
like the crocus, it will burst into bloom;
it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy;
the glory of Lebanon will be given to it,
the splendor of Carmel and Sharon;
they will see the glory of the LORD,
the splendor of our God.

strengthen the feeble hands,
steady the knees that give way;
say to those with fearful hearts,
be strong, do not fear;
your God will come,
he will come with a vengeance;
with divine retribution
he will come to save you.

Then will the eyes of the blind be opened;
and the ears of the deaf unstopped;
then will the lame leap like a deer;
and the mute tongue shout for joy;
water will gush forth in the wilderness
and streams in the desert.
the burning sand will become a pool;
the thirsty ground bubbling springs;
in the haunts where jackals once lay,
grass & reeds & papyrus will grow.

isnt it absolutely prettiful?!

i was green-ed at 12:06 am

Thursday, December 8

praise God, i got my NEW TENNIS SHOES! yarh we ended up not going to queensway after all, kuz while waiting for claire to wake up lol, lynette's sister called & so we went off to orchard instead. then claire finally came @ kino & we had lunch, lynette's sister is DAMN NICE okay, we got treated & i shamelessly spent $14 bucks which i will return somehow. somehow. kuz lynette & her sis both absolutely refused to take it. gosh.

then after walking round & round, getting my shoes @ world of sports, & my new grip (which is black btw), plus double sided tape, we saw ms ong while waiting for lynette's dad. gah. wearing pumps & looking cute as usual lol. ms ong, not her dad i mean. then off to her house for tennis & table tennis!

& i left her house kinduf late & then i got pushed out of the train (was peak) & then the next train i took got terminated @ yishun so i reached home QUITE late. mum didnt mind though which was strange kuz she normally cant stand it when i dont go home for dinner without informing in advance. ahh well.

anyways, kino is love, saw a bunch of religion books which look REALLY good. will go there sometime when i have teh opportunity. & money of course.

so i was going to talk about something, except i forgot what. so give me a bit of time to recall. gah. oh yes my tennis shoes, they're adidas, white & black with a bit of red? the cuttings a bit weird, and it looks generally strange, but ahh well. its not too bad.

anyways, just a random thing. over there in shanghai, i never watched movies in cinemas kuz they were five or six times more expenive than just buying e dvds. & over here i have to watch movies in cinemas kuz dvds are five or six times more expensive. sigh, teh irony of it all.

& btw, my table tennis, has gone down the drain into the longkang, drowned dirtified etc, & is now officially dead. sigh.

i was green-ed at 12:45 pm

Monday, December 5

psalm 62:1 is prettiful. "truly my soul waiteth upon God: from Him cometh my salvation"

my life is currently a social dud, quoting from some book i've no idea when i read. ahh well. seriously. no trainings, & my life is going to ruins. gah. im planning to go buy or rent soppy dramas to watch tomorrow, yay cheers for me! well @ least im hanging with lynette, going to queensway on wednseday. then & again, buying shoes, how long will that last. my mummy said i can get new school shoes, but not @ queensway kuz she thinks i'll spend too much. & she has perfectly good reason to, i admit.

so, basically i realised what a wonderfully nice person my mummy is, that she's worthy of being called a 'practicing christian'. anyways no, its not just kuz she agreed to let me get new school shoes, though it is one of the lesser reasons. the story is, the other day when we were seated in the living room ( the whole family, for once. you have NO idea how seldom it happens. though tis only four of us. ) & she's like lishin-jie's coming, you can go shopping with her in metro!

and im like blink. "er, ma, since when did you like to shop in metro?" ( i digress here to mention that metro has sucky clothes. e only thing i ever got there was e skill of wrapping presents, which i koped from the assistants who help you wrap up your christmas gifts & all)

so my mum's like, oh i got about $200 worth of vouchers, you know, maybe you could get a nice blouse (HECK) or a nice skirt (and im just like coughing my head off. a skirt?! what the heck for. the day i wear skirts is the day my eyes fall out & my nose becomes unflat. except chinese new year, that is.) but the point is, my mummy said she had vouchers.

so i asked if she got her vouchers thru her mastercard, or visa, or mx, or her company dinner & dance. she said " no, i gave my dinner & dance free gifts to my poor friday girl (her subordinate) who always gets prizes but didnt get one this year. they were vouchers to takashimaya, not metro, by the way."

so i was like gaping @ her & wondering why she didnt keep the taka ones & give the metro ones instead.

then she said, the vouchers weren't free, you know. i was like HUH?! i mean i think the reason they're called VOUCHERS is because they're free.

& shes like, well my tea lady got them @ the dinner and dance, but she says she never goes to metro because she can't afford it, (tea ladies are generally not as well to do, my mummy explained) & she looked so upset that i bought the metro vouchers from her. for the full price & all.

& then i was there gaping @ my mummy's niceness while she concentrated on watching tongxinyuan, as if she'd just told me something as insignificant as the fact that she had satay for lunch. but hey, theres one person i'm absolutely proud of to say " my mummy's a christian. and a true blue, real one."

i feel like a retard, calling her mummy. ahh well, not the point. i call her ma in real life anyway.

& i miss my dad! he's on a business trip going all around china, then to thailand, and will be back this sunday. i told him to get food for me. lol.

& i saw ms chi pin lay @ starhub bukit batok on saturday, she was wearing a white sleeveless & short red shorts. amusing, no? i pointed her out to my mummy & my mum was like, "she has a very nice figure for a dean. but she doesnt look like a dean. she looks more like my exclassmate blah blah blah" & started on a whole rant of how they used to hitch rides with guys on motorcycles. i was rather shocked about that part, but its not the point once more.

im painfully, drastically bored. so bored that i've started flipping through our maths textbook for next year, the one that goes " new syllabus additional mathematics, seventh edition" published by shinglee. it rocks, except the stuff is damn cheem & incomprehensible. uncomprehensible. non-comprehensible. NEVERMIND. my english always sucked anyways.

& yes i shall go now, & shut up. maybe i'll go borrow love @ harvard, & watch all e episodes that haven't screened yet, then gloat when my daddy comes back & tell him everything that will happen. HA. okay brilliant idea. (btw, to clear things up, when i watch serials & painfully silly idol dramas, be they chinese, english or korean, my daddy watches them with me, kuz my mummy says they're an insult to her intelligence. heh. & oh yes, my daddy watches movies with me too. & tennis games, football games, & any other sports. except golf, which he watches himself kuz i cannot find amusement in watching a sport which does not involve running & screaming & excitement & tension & suspense. )

my family's absolutely funky & i thank God for giving them to me. wootz.

i was green-ed at 2:37 pm