Friday, November 25
so i thought i'd blog. rather long-winded one, sorreh!
where have all the pasar malams gone,
i WANT TO EAT!!!i reckon food is one of God's greatest creations. or e sense of taste + smell. drool.
have been reading
ecclesiastes lately. some people say its depressing, but i dont really think so. its just pessimistic & its very true, loads of people feel that way. i particularly like chapter 3 verses 1 - 8, the whole chunk about how there is a time for everything.today's meeting thingum @ madeline's house was pretty kool. we kept on running off the topic discussing the most irrelevant stuff but that was fun too i guess, there's just no way to keep to the same track for the whole of 3 hours or so! ladida.
and i guess i might write, after all. despite flunking english & lit, writing isn't too bad kuz in a way it makes me feel, useful. & like im doing something or another to help, instead of just attending youth. which is kinda why i didnt feel that comfortable going to youth in shanghai, just sitting down there & doing bible study or singing but not really belonging in that sense. which is why feesh/thomas & i would pon & hide out in the bushes outside discussing any topic under e sun.
life rocks, for now.i reckon my morale just got a rather good boost so i'll go for training tomorrow. although they probably wont be there like last week, also thanks to the open day. i'll go kaypoh and check it out but must come home & practice piano & do piano hw so ARGH. i cant, absolutely cannot do quiet time @ home. i dont know. there's just so much stuff around me that i cannot place my concentration onto my devotionals, or e Bible @ hand, my material. i just skim through it, make some random notes, while playing muzik & chatting, then stopping to play hearts on the computer.
which is why i've switched to doing it @ mcdonalds. early in the morning, get a coffee, just sitting down there - its strangely calming, there're very few people, & not much sound apart from the tv playing chicken little over & over again. & @ a corner, a bunch of aunties snipping the ends of towkay & chatting. i like the sound of that. & how happy people @ mcdonalds sound, from the babies getting balloons; to the people @ the counter shouting to the people @ the back for two mcchickens, put more vegetable! in chinese.
& i can concentrate over there, get immersed in whatever im reading or studying. which reminds me, i dont really like
the purpose-filled life, its a bit on the slow going side. it just doesnt stick with me, i tend to skim through the surface. i like reading apologetics more, as well as explanatory texts, bible study stuff. devotionals are great, but not this particular one i guess. i wanna subscribe to everyday with jesus or something of the sort. & i desperately need to go to tecman soon, or the nice christian bookshop in great world city. wonderful places, them. will find someone to drag along, attempt to get sponsorship from mum (who most definitely will not sponsor) & go shop my ass off. yay.
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