Thursday, September 22
i feel strangely constructive today. i downloaded two techno songs on ares!!
i also went online to reread liang yu sheng's [yun-hai-yu-gong-yuan]. which roughly translates to cloud sea jade bow (as in arrow and bow bow) destiny. i've read it a mil times but it still rawkz. omgawsh i CANNOT WAIT until we move and i get to read my wuxia books again. not that i have a lot. im saving up currently to buy a lot more. heh.
I SWEAR.
if i hear 'you're beautiful' ONE MORE TIME i will swack james blunt
if i hear 'laoshuaidami' ONE MORE TIME i will kick guomeimei.
i don't have anything against them. maybe i'll attack all the people who play those songs all the time. its SO FREAKIN ANNOYING. everywhere i go, same rubbish. no, not rubbish. admittedly those songs are good if you listen to them once or twice.
i'm half regretting the stuff i talked abt yesterday. still. shall not delete the post. for roughly the same reasons as li ann.
chermaine is nice. shall remember to pay her back 5 bucks tmr.
so, was thinking about last time loooong ago in shanghai, everytime i was quiet for more than 2 mins, kristin would ask me if i was upset or something. and once i got pissed and i was like ok so can't i even be silent without you asking if im annoyed?? and kris was like kuz you're normally so hyper and chatty and all. (yo kris btw if you read this, i'm not pissed @ you lol)
and im so thankful that im generally a happy person. not to say i walk around with a goofy retarded smile on my face 24/7, but like i don't have misery or misunderstandings or stuff like that. which also explains why i am so completely against goth ideology. when im feeling lonely - which has been relatively frequent in the past month, i just remind myself what someone told me, loneliness is when you realise God is forever your friend. and thus you'll NEVER be lonely.
the reason im mainly optimistic and cheerful most of the time unlike angsty teens of our painful growing adolescence years is prob kuz, ironically of all the world problems. like the hurricane rita that's threatening to hit texas, katrina, e tsunami, etc. our world's falling apart. and some day the day of judgment WILL come and we WILL all perish and die. since that day seems to be coming ever closer it'll be stupid to waste my time feeling sad.
only i don't want to die of heat. i think dying of heat is the worst way a person could die. no wait, drowning is worse.
i was green-ed at 6:56 pm
