just so green-ed;
((:

Sunday, September 25
straits times need to get their info checked. taimei is NOT the female version of taike, dammit.


today, listened to a couple of old songs.
was playing guitar to 'are you happy now'
it's like an easy song to play, but the lyrics are love.

it's always the same question. all that ppl do, all the tears they shed for it, scoldings they get for it, time they spend on it, energy they waste on it. in the end, sometimes feel like asking them

- could you look me in the eye, and tell me that you're happy now -
- would you tell it to my face, or have i been erased, are you happy now -


so far i have crammed two solid hours for geog!! yes, big deal. lol especially if you consider the fact that i have gotten nothing stuck in my head yet. however must take the time here to thank chanyi for her wonderful geog file which is SO FREAKIN ORGANISED. ladida. and oh yes renee for maths, liza for science, li ann for history and su fen for lit. yes.

i don't know if its a blessing or a curse but i seem somehow to be incapable of freaking out. like i don't get rattled or panicky or nervous before exams, performances, speeches, or debates. maybe kuz i haven't had actual serious life-or-death exams for four years. ahh well.

today and yesterday i broke my own rules of dressing. shriek, as if. i wore TIGHT DENIM. double shriek. having no love for blue denim, its extremusly weird. HOWEVER, baggy jeans are love though. oh damn i sound like a prep-cum-cheerleader-cum-skank-cum-slut-cum-bitch. only those people generally love tight denim and denim skirts. and okay so back to the point. went into one of those preppy pink shops today, full of rubbishy trashily expensive jewellery that's seriously..... too pink and ugly. then i saw the metal accessories and i was like LUFF then i saw MY FAVOURITE RING on sale there!! i bought it for like 10 rmb ($2 sgd) a yr ago in s'hai and it was selling for 5 bucks here i was like yayers. my ring is pretty pretty pretty.

today also realised i've been letting myself too loose. like my ideals for the exams are just pass, somehow get my way into ip, and to hell with the rest, will start working hard only for next year. sighs. must change my mentality. i'll just let myself loose for geog, history, lit, maths, english, chinese, and science. lol.

davis cup. doubles are so fun to watch. i really pity them, playing for more than 3 hrs @ times. like the slovak republic vs argentina game.

don't you just love the enticing smell of bakeries? today went over to bukit batok for church, then to see how our house was doing, all our stuffs coming tomorrow wootazies!! then went to the market, ate and walked around the shops again and again and again. there're like four bakeries and i love every single one of them. i'm sure heaven will have tonnes of bakeries smelling utterly wonderful.

yesterday was good, we went to lau pa sat and ate our guts out. especially me. food is my sole reason for survival sometimes. i wish weighing scales were never friggin invented. or that there were more plus size models or smth. food is GOOD MY FRIEND. i love s'pore food. old airport has AWESOME otah and satay and charkuayteow and pasta and fishhead soup noodles thingy and nasi lemak and desserts and porridge and dumplings. yess, thats what our family shared and ate for a mere dinner.

church was awesome today, apparently there's this dude with a 100-minute-bible thing. we kinda had a realy good argument abt it. i like church, ppl talk to you like equals and respect your opinions, like my rents. unlike suppression ever so obvious @ skl. bleh.

Saturday, September 24

don't feel like blogging.
got nothing to blog about.
shall blog sensibly later.

9 days and less to exams.
should really start cramming.

just a completely random statement
rugby rawkz, especially contact rugby.
only i pity guys when they have to play contact rugby wif girls. muaha.

shall attempt to memorize lines.
shall use the phrase ' oh gosh ' much less often.
wootazies!

and i think im going kuku.
oops.
yes i am.
tis a highly disturbing thought.
its completely not the time to go mad.
but ahh well who cares, yay enjoy the sunshine people while you can!!

oh yesss. must remember to pray for texas ppl.
must also remember to pray for uncle rich's dad.
its kinda ironic. the acts method of praying.
a,c and t take up 3 lines in total.
s will take up 5 mins. ahh well.

Thursday, September 22

i feel strangely constructive today. i downloaded two techno songs on ares!!
i also went online to reread liang yu sheng's [yun-hai-yu-gong-yuan]. which roughly translates to cloud sea jade bow (as in arrow and bow bow) destiny. i've read it a mil times but it still rawkz. omgawsh i CANNOT WAIT until we move and i get to read my wuxia books again. not that i have a lot. im saving up currently to buy a lot more. heh.

I SWEAR.
if i hear 'you're beautiful' ONE MORE TIME i will swack james blunt
if i hear 'laoshuaidami' ONE MORE TIME i will kick guomeimei.
i don't have anything against them. maybe i'll attack all the people who play those songs all the time. its SO FREAKIN ANNOYING. everywhere i go, same rubbish. no, not rubbish. admittedly those songs are good if you listen to them once or twice.

i'm half regretting the stuff i talked abt yesterday. still. shall not delete the post. for roughly the same reasons as li ann.

chermaine is nice. shall remember to pay her back 5 bucks tmr.

so, was thinking about last time loooong ago in shanghai, everytime i was quiet for more than 2 mins, kristin would ask me if i was upset or something. and once i got pissed and i was like ok so can't i even be silent without you asking if im annoyed?? and kris was like kuz you're normally so hyper and chatty and all. (yo kris btw if you read this, i'm not pissed @ you lol)

and im so thankful that im generally a happy person. not to say i walk around with a goofy retarded smile on my face 24/7, but like i don't have misery or misunderstandings or stuff like that. which also explains why i am so completely against goth ideology. when im feeling lonely - which has been relatively frequent in the past month, i just remind myself what someone told me, loneliness is when you realise God is forever your friend. and thus you'll NEVER be lonely.

the reason im mainly optimistic and cheerful most of the time unlike angsty teens of our painful growing adolescence years is prob kuz, ironically of all the world problems. like the hurricane rita that's threatening to hit texas, katrina, e tsunami, etc. our world's falling apart. and some day the day of judgment WILL come and we WILL all perish and die. since that day seems to be coming ever closer it'll be stupid to waste my time feeling sad.

only i don't want to die of heat. i think dying of heat is the worst way a person could die. no wait, drowning is worse.

Wednesday, September 21

yay everybody get out your lianhezaobao's baomihua section and flip flip flip guess what, ROGER FEDERER IS FEATURED WOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!
hearts and kisses to him.
pukes upon reading my own words.

singapore seventeen is the best s'porean manufactured-edited-etc magazine. yep.

SO back to the point. today saw the byotchy side of a CERTAIN SOMEONE which aint really much of a mystery. i thought it was pathetic, like, ' im not directing this @ li ann ' but like DUDE almost every sentence has her name in it, ohh i see you're not directing it at her. PFT. and somehow she managed to put the blame on everybody except lo and behold, herself. pissment.

ok, i shall try to be slightly more objective now. she was probably pmsing. cant blame a woman for being one. also cant blame a teacher for being huo when she thinks that her students have lied to her, or are terribly disorganized or are out to ruin her plans. only she should've gotten more facts straight yesterday, before coming into class and showing a quick outburst of anger like ZAT. and shouldnt have blamed us for being late, and its not like she asked the whole class to go, so she should have just talked to the people who she asked to go.

she was sorta right though i suppose. most teachers would probably just rage. she was decidedly reasonable. and i cant be the judge of correct fair behaviour. can't play God. @ least she apologised, which is more than i can say of some others.

reminds me of miao. she used to single out cher so much. like " i think everybody in your class are very good in chinese, except li hui yi. " teachers should learn. singling out people, whether they're monitresses, bottom of the class, right in front of them, whether it is to compliment or reprimand, is NOT a good idea for populaity.

and i also saw the bad part (profanities are restrained from being used ) in another person, this time a certain member of class. shall refrain from saying who. don't worry, it's not you. because THAT person hasn't been acting like i even exist so she wouldnt be reading this thus she wouldnt be you kuz you are reading this. wow. i sounded so intelligent there, lol. in fact i wonder if she's talked to me @ all, whether its thru msn or my tag or in person. that's not the reason i have this weird aversion to her though. something else. if you ask i'll tell but im not gna risk putting it here. i think my dad reads my blog frequently. and strangely, i don't mind.

im not even gonna find excuses for her. gawsh. its so hard to follow what the Bible says. love all. love all. love all. trying to brainwash it into my brain which is already numb from all the info filing thru. NOTE, through, therefore going in and out. maybe it would be easier if i just saw things without them going through my brain's process of criticism, insults, sarcasm and cynicism.

gosh. stupid lit. all those stupid quotes to remember. like exkeryooze me, will someone tell me how memorizing speeches of ppl in certain novels or plays helps us in life? except for answering geog questions on being a tomato plant, of course.

todays post was extremusly unchristian. ahh well.

Tuesday, September 20

today i was in a fit of hysterical giggles. dunno why. anywayz, YAY WE'RE GONNA MOVE BACK TO OUR OLD HOUSE IN ABT 10 DAYS!! which means i'll have books of my own to read instead of lit novels and newspapers and studying notes, places to shop @, kuz bkt timah is well, boring actually, and i'll have all my clothes and belts and black leather + metal stuff woot!! & my beanbag, gawsh i've missed it.

basketball shoes are so nice. skateboarding shoes are even nicer. & i have no idea why the americans call normal sports shoes (AKA track shoes as i call them or trainers as others call them) tennis shoes when they're not!! jeez. love to my track shoes, tennis shoes and half-skateboarding shoes, btw. woot!! i think i have too many shoes.

its kinduf ironic how i've been classified as a geekette. ahaha cute word. but nvm. as i was saying, its really freakin annoying. to be like classed based on fluke marks and whatnot. told myself i wouldn't let it get to me, but AHH ITS GETTING ME REELED AND PISSED. in, out, in, out. ok im fine. lets all look on the bright side. its better to be a geek than a dork. yep. & right now, since EVERYBODY seems to think that studying is all i spend my precious time doing, that's precisely what i shall do. eff it.

oh shall spare some of my 'studying' time to post lyrics of a song that cheers me up:

constipated by weird al yankovich
p.s sing to tune of complicated
i just posted some parts of it.

Tell me,
Why'd you have to go
and make me so constipated?
Cause right now I'd do anything
to just get my bowels evacuated,
In the bathroom.
I sit and I wait and I strain
and I sweat and I clench and I feel the pain
Oh, should've taken laxatives or had my colon irrigated.
No, no, no.

I had so much on my mind,
I thought maybe I'd unwind.
Try out that new roller coaster ride,
And the guide..
.Said not to stand,
but that's a demand,
That I couldn't meet,
I got on my feet,
And stood up instead and
knocked off my head you see.

Tell me.
Why'd I have to go and get myself decapitated?
This really is a major inconvenience,
oh man I really hate it.
It's such a drag now.
I can't eat, I can't breathe, I can't snore,
I can't belch or yodel anymore,
Can't spit or blow my nose or even read Sports Illustrated.
No, no, no...

Why'd I have to go and get myself all mutilated?
I gotta tell ya, life without a head kinda makes me irritated.
What a bummer.
I can't blink, I can't cough, I can't sneeze.
But my neck is enjoying a pleasant breeze now.
Haven't been the same since my head and I were separated.
No, no, no.

yayerz feel much better. shall now go and watch bball, some repeats of this match between aussie and china. and oh i'd better go cut the nails on my left hand and trim those on my right, having longer right nails seriously DOES help wif guitarring. lol random fact, some chinese men keep the nails of their pinkies long for digging their earshyt wif!!

Monday, September 19

watching the game between lindsay davenport and some unknown. i like davenport, wondahful player though she's 30, completely better than pierce. hard court games are fast woot.

bio and life sci = a serious pain in the arse.

so yayzes its blogging time again, im overly addicted, i reckon. ahh well. was revising physics and bio and life sci just now, the only thing i GET is physics, & the rest just went through a journey through the space between my ears. you know, in the thick set of notes called ' concept of force and pressure ' i luv the pic of the elephant on a trampoline. cuteness.

today i woke up with my ankle hurting like hell and my whole body sore. right now my ankles a lot better except its sorta swollen looking but my whole body's even sorer. gawsh just proves my lack of exercise. and tomorrow's pe. groans. i like volleyball, such a pretty lovely game. and omg last chance working on muzik and DAMN i needa get clothes 4 the eng speech and shit batik's due.

i've decided i shall watch a variety of sports fr now on. most of the time i focus on tennis, doi, and like sometimes football (liverpool vs manu 0-0 WTF IS THAT) plus occasional diving (omg that poor person who dived and knocked her head on the board as she went down), basketball and random sports. fr now on i shall watch anything and everything, EXCEPT golf, of course.

talking abt tennis, RUSSIA WON THE FED CUP 3-2!!!
yep, they won the doubles rubber, safina and dementieva. safina is actually marat safin's younger sister and shes only 19 im just like WHOA.
right nows the china open but nobody i particularly like is there.

more reflections on myself:
i've always promoted like pride. as in like basic, simple, self-loving, self-respecting pride.
and like i've always had bucketfuls of it.
but now i think i have too much.
like from just pride, im going into being a real proud, well, bitch.
shall pray for strength to change. yep.

my dads watching lost. shall go kacau him.

Sunday, September 18

thx vanessa for explaining the dif between dna and rna & all that bullshit sigh groan blah.

i feel good today, yayzers. i DID SOME EXERCISE woot!! ladida 1 hr 45 mins of tennis and i lost to my dad 0-6, 6-7, gawsh. shall blame it all on my serve. but anyhow i realise i havent been doing any form of exercise for like two weeks. not good. ahh well explains the uh, spare tyres.

somebody else got caught w/ racist remarks on their blogs. ladida. better be very frickin careful fr now on. yep. i luv russian tennis - aka dementieva and myskina. i forgot where vaidisova came from, i think czech republic or czechoslovakia. gawsh that word is unspellable.

just watched ATP tennis - its this show thingy where they talk about old games, new matches and whatnot. not bad but still. before that was the game between myskina and pierce, myskina lost 6-4, 4-6, 2-6. kinda weird there, considering pierce is 6 yrs older, but ah well i suppose pierce is also taller and a LOT more muscular.

before i went tennising was watching the game between dementieva & mauresmo, dementieva won 6-4, 4-6, 6-2. so scores are right now 2-2 and they're not showing games tomorrow pah. good thing though i might have time to catch up on work, kuz i sortuf didnt do my maths or english yet. heh.

my ankle hurts. when i was playing wif my dad i kinda was too hyped up when i won one game i kinda started spazzing and jumping up and down. then i fell. landed on my left foot and its sorta sprainishedly hurting. sigh. ahh well lol.

now supersports is showing smth about snowboarding. wow. it looks very freakin fast. ladida i still prefer skiing lol lol.

Saturday, September 17

edit later @ 10.53 pm :

OMGAWSH MYSKINA IS PLAYING AIYAHAHAHA
she's playing mauresmo, she'll probably lose, kuz she loses to mauresmo all the time but still YAY!

the original blog:

i need a cellgroup argh!!!
i also need tuition for life sciences
*COFFFF* to the science pros around. ahh well.

is watching a game between mary pierce and dementieva. seriously the world is so unfair.
why is sharapova (swears eloquently at mere mention of the insulting name) so publicised and dementieva and myskina and other russians are like, blech.

hsk was sucky but ahh well tis over and done with. good.

and i've made up my mind about my future profession! judy got a shock when i told her. my mum was like, hm, maybe you can do that as FREELANCE, and my dad just seemed amused.

im gna teach!! ok so if you're reading this you'll be like, GOSH. big deal, teaching's like the most boring profession. i dunno if its considered teaching or counselling or like just chatting but yes im gonna 'teach' ex-convicts and convicts and yayers itll be so so so fun. they don't NEED teaching actually. maybe i'll just learn like psychology and then talk to them and go hiking or picking strawberries with them or something.

i sensed sceptism when i said the word ' fun'. ok so maybe it wont be exciting but ladida i'll get to meet new people, and since nobody wants to do the job, i shall, plus i'll be doing something useful for once. must do something constructive for society!

ohh yes and today i opened the car door too wildly and it hit something and now there's a dent in it and my dad's attempting murder. heh. sorry, pa if you happen to read this. =D he was like if you go help out convicts you're never gonna earn enough to pay me back for the car door. i roll my eyes. gawsh as if.

remembering the whole li-en and i getting rich old husbands, kill them on the wedding night and get all their money. i think we forgot that there was the slight possibility we would be found out.

how long do u reckon i'd stick with this choice of profession? i say two months.

Friday, September 16

was listening to another old song in my out of date collection of music - angela's yuyan. very thought-evoking. love the lyrics ' ni zhe feng rang ziji tiyan mei yige ganjue ' stupid blogspot i cant type chinese here.

ohh gawsh. i just realised i needa try more extreme sports. the only one i HAVE tried is whitewater rafting and it isnt even much of an extreme sport. pah. its awesome tho.

the lantern festival celebration thingy was shockingly, quite fun, once the performances and food snatching commotion was over. ladida. footballing - its official, i suck. flat on the floor i fell. lol.

today there was an accident on the way to school. poor poor poor dude.

thx to sarah i now understand that the green club is for people to pick up rubbish and stuff. ahh oh well last resort, that will be. stop pollution, dammit, rachel khooing.

so to enlighten all those about my subject selection:
chem, physics and chinese lit. everyone gawks and stares in shock @ the mention of chi lit. and no one else they know have even considered it. ahh well. why i chose chinese lit:

1) my mum said either bio or clit, so for me, thats def clit. there is nothing that pains me more than the memorizing of irrelevant terms in bio.

2) i've never done s'pore history, i have so much to catch up on geog already, and i don't know how to answer lit essay quesns properly. this my only choice CAN be clit. considering everyone's gna start fr ground zero so @ least there's this whole even footing bullshit.

tomorrows hsk, gotta pray pray pray so freakin hard.

Thursday, September 15

listening to will's gao-shou. cute cute song.

talking about will, i just squandered like what, SIX FRICKIN BUCKS on teens and teenage (and 2 more on eight days). i have no idea what made me do that. six!! when seriously, teens & teenage have like the exact same celeb news, reviews and whatnot.

HOWEVER, both of the mags hav interviews with yay guess who, will!!! despite the fact that the interviews occupy only like 2 out of the very many more pages in both the magz, i am still extremusly happy. yawn.

i was looking thru the list of ccas and have hereby decided that i shall take everyone's advice & join a slack cca. unfortunately, my dearest mother is not bound to agree, thus i still have to approach the tt coach, embarass myself entirely, and go join something like library or somewhat.

brilliant. my absolute best idea so far.

i mean what other slack ccas are there? sigh. its so miserable. IS library even a cca? ah well. who gives. green club. whats THAT?!

sigh sigh. my hsk exam is this saturday and im gonna die so badly. i mean all this time i haven't had time to study for it and all, except ystrday and today, i brought the assessment book thingy to school and attempted to do a bit. it wasn't successful.

ahh well, shall pray.

today was a really pathetic blog.

Wednesday, September 14

confused, confused, confused, OH SO FREAKIN CONFUSED.
lit essay plans.
omgawsh i know NOTHING about tkam its so so so frickin annoying.
well, shan't not waste too much time talking about lit.

its kinda funny how i have probs with all this work already. and its not like i have lots of tuition. if you compare that to shanghai -

i had guzheng & table tennis on monday, chinese and guitar on tuesday, maths on wednesday, tennis and table tennis on thursday, chinese on friday (only this got cancelled so much kuz of all my staying-back-to-watch-basketball-though-i-wasnt-interested-in-the-guys-or-the-game), table tennis on saturday and tennis on sunday.

- phewph.
i need to effing FIND a tennis & table tennis coach or smth. i'm completely forgetting how to play kuz my dad doesn't know the 'method' of playing against me. so when we play we suck. and his arm is always sore from playing golf anyhow.
bah.

today i completed my selection form & i'm already having like a million regrets about what i effing chose, but i'm too lazy to find the form from the stack of papers beside the comp.
my mum was insisting on triple sciences but i was like HELL NO and shes like okay we shall COMPROMISE.
as we all know, her 'compromise' is aka ' i'll get my way in the end '
but she didnt!!!
i'm gonna do chem and physics, woot, and she managed to persuade me to take CHINESE LIT.
do not question how she managed to achieve that.



10.06 am, thursday, edit:///
sheesh and damn i am such a failure pah.
i mean all those lessons and im not good enough at anything to get a proper cca. i can't even join uniformed groups but the day i join uniformed thingys is the day i die, practically. i absolutely REFUSE i repeat REFUSE.

that's not the reason i decided to rant on in here.
fact is i needa go for a trial for table tennis and i have the very bad feeling that im gna like totally embarass myself, groans.
ladida i prayed!!!

but God prob won't let me get into table tennis anyhow, as a sort of punishment for me laughing @ the table tennis coach in front of him, mocking him when he's gone, and never taking any of his lessons seriously @ all.

sigh, sigh.

ppl suggested taking slack ccas but i have not talent in the first place so how the **** am i gonna be able to get in aiyah. nvm. no fretting over useless useless things.

shall leave now and get some food. 8.

ps, hope louise gets well soon and comes back just in time for the eoys! yay okay thats more like a curse but anyhow.

pps or pss, i've handed in my selection form. eeks. my future is SET.hahahha still very drama i am.

Monday, September 12

today was a gr8 day, surprisingly.

i hereby declare my unparalleled and undivided love to three things.
ironic or oxymoronic, you decide.

1) roger federer!!! omgawsh he does rawk. agassi could not take his serves @ all, i'm watching the repeats right now, as i couldnt be bothered to stay up last night. amazing amazing amazing. i seriously like his hair too. and his racquet woot wilson ncode!!

2) baidu. it is the bomb. i mean one can download practically any known chinese song on the planet over there with a couple of jap/kor onez, complete with lyrics. and the bbs thingys are just awesome. is it piracy? ah well too bad. if the downloaded song sounds good, naturally one shall go buy the cd.

3) the song 'the golden city'. itz wondahful and utterly beeyooteefool. here's the lyrics of just the chorus:

we will meet in the Golden city
in the new jerusalem
all our pain and all our tears will be no more
we will stand with the hosts of heaven
and cry 'holy is the lamb'
we will worship and adore you forever more

and here i conclude my post.

Sunday, September 11

[may God bless those who died on this date four years ago, and all their friends, relatives, and everyone else in the world affected.]

CLIJSTERS WON! yay woot joy, really, mary pierce seriously was no match for her. especially with the two injuries. anyhow, clijsters has had a really good year, and i don't really care that myskina and vaidisova didn't win or anything. as long as sharapova didn't, i shall cheer for whoever the winner is.

mens finals @ 1 tonight. i shall watch if i haven't finished my essay by then yet.

ahaha. im currently taking a break fr writing the lit essay, *groans*.

@ the same time, im also watching will's mv of "kuai le chong bai", one of the dvds i bought before leaving s'hai. angela lookz gr8 in the video, except shes not much more than a stick. understanding why so many male celebs like her. old song, but its so freakin catchy lol. will dances hiphop decently.

the following is some stupid thing i wrote before i fell asleep a couple days ago, after watching a game between dementieva and someone. all these russian names are hard to spell.

anyhowdies, this thingy is based on the 'numb' video. and no, its not a poem. i've given up all literary attempts since two years ago. it's just .... a commentary of what the video is trying to say.

she is the girl with the broken soul
the despaired green eyes

she is the girl who walks alone
as she passes giggling cliques
and chattering steoreotypical groups
on her way home.

she is the girl
who doesn't care for the paint stains
or the six-packed guys to be gushed over

she is the girl who hears at home
complaints
from her mother
and when her drunken father is back

she is the girl with the blue-blacked arms
from the bruises she gets
when she grips too hard to stop the tears

she is the girl with the countless scars
that nobody knows or sees

she is the girl
who kneels at the foot of the cathedral
and duplicates the statue onto her canvas
with a whimsical smile
and clothes that are too big for her

she is the girl who is weird,
they say.

Friday, September 9

[link]
click!
itz a picture that feesh (fish, old classmate) drew of the mafia.
& the mafia, btw, was the group of people in class who hung around bullying the westerners & geeks & never did hw & who were hated by all teachers. heh.
im the highly attractive one 2nd from right.

here's the mafia pledge!
all the words in bold are words that mean pimples/zits
& we named it so kuz the faggot who got us all yellow forms
had zits covering every atom of his face. yep.

The angels of darkness that come to the aid
Of those tormented by people with large doohickeys.
And to uphold the law and order
And to prevent others from getting beauty spots.
It is our mission to conquer the pustule
and to banish the furnucle
from the ends of this earth.
To exterminate the blemish upon your heads.
To free you from the clutches of THE BUMP.
May God guide us in our holy mission:
To Annihilate the Papule. Amen.
We are FAGWATCH.
faggots, beware.

i'll post more pics nxt week.


[north]

- i feel like crying.
- no, i am not depressed or anything of the sort.
- but i still feel like crying.
- why, why, WHY did i get the wilson ncode n6??
- why, why, WHY did i not get the n4/n5?
- ok so maybe the n4 is too long and hard for me.
- considering venus williams uses it.
- & maybe the length of the n6 is perfect for 'players of all levels' aka people who suck and need good racquets to make up for skill or lack thereof.
- but the n5 is so pretty and ncodes are light and i play better with bigger heads AIYAH.
- i wouldn't actually mind a head racquet either.
- considering myskina & vaidisova both use it.
- but federer uses a ncode six-one tour, and its so so so pretty.
- its colours dont really suit a guy though. oh well.

enough rambling on about tennis racquets.

[south]

- i MIGHT GET A DRUM SET WOOT!!!
- hyperly hyped up i am.
- i mean drumming is like the 2nd best thing to do after guitarring.
- heh.
- & one can play drums for like any song on the planet.
- except sonatas & sonatinas & that.
- muh mum says she'll decide ltr but kuz my sis & i BOTH want it ( & considering how seldom we agree on things ) she says she'll probably get one.
- it'll be second hand but hahaha who cares?
- & im still painfully saving up for my prs guitar + perney amps.
- hahaha so far after coming to s'pore i've only saved like 60 bucks
- and that's kuz i haven't bought any cds since i've been here. ahh well.
- drums yayerz if i do get it i dun need to look idiotic by playing air drums anymore.
- my mum & dad have been thinking i've gone bonkers fr stress when they see me in front of the computer blasting something & doing weird motions with both hands and feet. they don't seem to understand that there's something in me that feels incapable of stress.
- air drumming is fun.

enough rambling on about drums.

[east]

- i've been watching [ xiao yu er yu hua wu que ] online these days
- 45 episodes, groan lol but i managed to finish!!
- i love wuxia stuff, yep. and its a good show.
- i seriously think those ppl who say nick tse is only a pretty face with no ability to act should watch the series.
- he acts awesomely in there,
- if you overlook the fact that he's not that tall
- (i admit he is like 1.75 i think BUT still better than tom cruise!)
- he actually does have a heck lot of talent. and he's committed.
- like other ppl would ask for subs to do the
- complicated wuxia moves like flying and hitting and kicking and whatnot
- but he always does it himself.
- & apparently doctors say if he doesnt rest,
- he's gonna have like one leg shorter than another,
- backbone injuries,
- and general bad health.
-kuz he'z always working & working on shows & stuff. sigh.

- AND, we must not forget that he is cute.
- not as cute as will or edison or tangyu, but.
- nevertheless, cute.

enough rambling on about xie-ting-feng.

[west]

- ok last but not least.
- i have decided that no matter how busy i am, i shall not abandon the following:

• guitar
• tennis
• table tennis
• blogging
• wuxia dianshi's and books
• linkin park, fir, energy, will and a lot of other good artistez
• troy, gr8 movie, and no, its not kuz of the guys.
• the colour grey
• the mafia, I HAVE OUR PORTRAIT!!
• drums whether i get a drum set or not
• saving money
• and i'll make an effort to study.
• diary writing, i haven't written since skl started
• doing my share of housework (SIGH)
• cursing angelina jolie & pitts
• hawker food, (drools)
• my sister, she is a good source of money, when i give her tuition.
• my parents, the best source of money.

enough rambling on in general.

[and finalle, the end.]

Saturday, September 3

hello, no bullet pointez 2dae kuz i'm gna do a loongish blog, since i reckon i won't be blogging for like the rest of the holidays.

i'm popping bubble wrap. heh. itz such a constructive use of time.

diary

today was like so muddly and funky kuz i didnt do ANYTHING constructive except eating. and i ate, well, a LOT. in the morning i slept in, then we went to church for the garage sale and food fair for fundraising.

i bought a heck lot of trash kuz these really cute little girls from girls' brigade, princess elizabeth primary school were advertising them and i was like, ok ok whatever. i mean, ok, so little kidz are really annoying and totally piss me off, but these kiddiewinklez were so cuuute and they were from my old school so i gave them full moral support.

well now i have two sets of five-stones and no idea what to do with them. and this soft toy yellow star with a smiley face. so cute. and three photo frames, as well as two dumplings in the fridge, two gigantum kebabs in my stomach, and a lot more food i cannot remember.

then my mum and i chilled by walking around west mall, with me going into every shop and gushing at some thing, then looking at the price and leaving the shop quickly. and my mum would just smile that infuriatingly superior smile of hers. shez an okay mum, actually, especially after coming back 2 s'pore.

we went to suntec city after that and i swear that 1/2 of singapore was there. comex was good, except i got stepped on at a rate of two times per second. and btw, is it some sort of pathetic trend for guyz to like wear jeans that TAPER @ the ends and so kinda tucked into their skateboarding/punk shoes?! itz sorta ugly. like no offence. but it is. itz such an insult to skateboarding shoes which are like one of the most beeyooteefool creationz of mankind. one of the ONLY beeyooteefool creationz, i shold say. we finalle got a printer!!

then i had a bowl of laksa and one prata and then we went to the foodfair (also in suntec) and i ate like even more, like this hakka bao thingy with meicaikourou inside & sushi & taiwanese sausages hahahaa they're so. damned. good. and now im eating chwee kueh and later shall eat a kiwi and some prunes, plus when i watch the us open i'll snack on sotong thingys. and we all wonder why i got my very excellently miaotiao figure.

hilarity

ugly girl - taimaishu
chinese freestyle rap - taimaishu
constipated - weird al yankovich
weenie in a bottle - weird al yankovich

what i PLAN to do during the Sept holidays

- practice guitarring AT LEAST 1.5 hrs a day -
- eat! -
- put good use to the 2 sets of five-stones i have acquired -
- watch as much of the us open as i can -
- practice a bit of tennis or smth -
- do more Bible study, more praying
- participate in the youth thingymajiggerz.
- study -
- come up with a long list of why ex-cons should be given a 2nd chance in society, for my sceptical and pessimistic mumz sake -
- figure out how to use the printer, and waste lotz of ink, yayzes! -
- get picz of cui peng, he is so so so so cute hahahaha i know how shytty my taste in guyz is, esp. my opinion of whatz cute and whatz not, i mean i thought pengyuyan was cute, well he IS cute but still anyhow my eyesight is really distorted in regardz of guys so yeah, nvm -
- chill online -
- attempt to get caught up a bit more on current bands and stuff -
- practice techno. rnb & hiphop r ok to improvise + impromptu, pop is ok 2 choreograph, but techno is so FRIGGIN HARD -
- after all that, fit in time to catch up on sleep -

random chat

my mum has given me the okay to go clubbing with my above-18 cousinz when we go back 2 malaysia in december, or cny, which is like so frickin kool, except she'll make them bring me back by midnight, knowing her. pah. but still, CLUBBING!! i didnt even know i was allowed to.

shez like being weird lately. i mean all i do nowadays is hang online watching downloaded tv & all she does is glances and tut-tuts disapprovingly, then struts off back into the kitchen doing goodness knows whatses.

sigh.

one thing i realised about interntional schooling & all that is that you meet all these people from different countries, (not exactly different backgrounds considering a large majority of them are rich asses who don't need to do well and will inherit their parents' booming businesses.)

shockingly enough, 4 years ago, i thought that studies was everybodys first priority. and that people denied it only either
1) to be kool, or
2) to hide competitiveness.
well for some people it IS true, but for a surprising large majority its not.

i mean just kuz singapore's education forces the fact onto us poor suppressed innocents that education is the only route to success doesn't mean its true.

like itz so kool to have had like 3/4 of the class to say they don't care if they fail something or not, and 3/4 of those people to truly mean it. and the really most petrifying fact is that some parents' are actually perfectly content with their children ( who in fact are extremely bright ) achieving no more than Ds and Cs for all subjects.

itz so effing kool. and it helped me like so much.

kuz marks aint all that importantuh to me anymore. HA. took me a while to adapt to that, though. i mean if you've been brought up told by everyone how wonderful it was to get scholarships and all that bullshit, you can't just go snap i don't give a shyt anymore. but i did, HA.

okok stop grovelling in the pride i shall.
hahaha. master yoda is the epitome of cuteness.

for some unfathomable reason, i am especially hyper.
prob the extra goof. HAHAHA i meant food. never mind.
i shall stop blogging before i make an ass of myself.
not like i haven't already.

Thursday, September 1

hello ppl, i am too lazy to blog decently today. sigh, the temptation of procastination and sloth. i have yet to decide on what to do between 11-1 on monday.

i'm currently watching the game between justine henin-hardenne and sanchez lorenzo, they're seriously kool it's like their third deuce for this set for this game and they're awesome players.
hardenne isn't playing very well though, compared to last year.
myskina is supposed to be playing today too but they're not showing her game, dammit!!!
i cannot believe kuznetsova is actually OUT. even roddick being out is more believable.

linkin park kickz so much ass. they seriously need to get a new album funkin though.
fir aiyayah they're so so so good. if ian dares to leave i'll smack him. on the gluteals.
energy is so freakin good how could they even be compared to like ouxiangpai groups like mayday and 5566 it is seriously insulting. plus they're separating, sobbish.

life is a beeyooteefool special thing.

• so is the invention of the internet, blogging, msn.
• the invention of tennis.
• the invention of all kitchen appliances.
• the invention of the flush toilet.
• the invention of animals, plants, and the balance that used to be around between the two.
• the cathedral of notre dame.
• the invention of the guitar, electric AND acoustic.
• the creation of satellites, allowing me to watch the us open right now.
• the creation of white-out/blanco/liquid paper, whatever you call it.
• wolves.
• eagles.
• amethysts, emeralds, sapphires, rubies, opals.
• all the pretty trees around, especially sycamore.
• music of all kinds, except punk pop and baby pop.
• cartoonz like spongebob!!! aiyah spongebob is so so so lurvely.
• the finding of silver.
• the creation of subaru cars omgawshness they're so frickin pretty and nice and nice!

alena. girl. christian.
and God rawks my life!
ccm. peps. nyps.
yciss. nygh.
14 Jan 1991
LIMEGREENPIGGY!
WUXIA STUFF!
complicated.fickle.
eating. shopping.
cards.sleeping.
AZN PRIDE, woot!
watching tennis.
head nano ti. s4/s1!
piano. guzheng. guitar.
music in general
singing in e shower.
pigs & cows whee!
food. food. more food.
QUIKSILVER.
pinkworm readingclub.
linkin park. jj.
fir. energy.
mahjong. fruits.
grey, silver, green

shoutouts.

((:

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[anastasia]
[amanda]
[amanda tan]
[brenda]
[carol]
[catherine]
[ck]
[chanyi]
[cheronne]
[claire]
[davina]
[eugenia]
[feesh]
[fishie]
[huiyi]
[jackson]
[jasmine]
[jayne]
[jiawei]
[jocelyn]
[kitleng]
[kristin]
[kris' piczo!]
[liann]
[li-en]
[liza]
[louise]
[lynette]
[melissa]
[melody]
[michelle]
[noreen]
[rachel]
[renee]
[sarah]
[sufen]
[vanessa]
[vanessa heng]
[weili]
[yuechin]
[yingming]


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